I'm tired of letting people walk all over me. I'm just sick of it all. Just because I don't like to pick fights does not give anyone the right to just use me, or act like they can say, do, or treat me/my things in any way without a care!

I don't pick fights because whenever I do I blame myself for doing something wrong, when all I was doing was sticking up for myself for once. That's all I ever tried to do with Cas, and look where it's gotten me? Another therapy, another school where...

I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of yelling.
I'm tired of being sad.
I'm tired of pretending.
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm tired of being angry.
I'm tired of feeling crazy.
I'm tired of feeling stuck.
I'm tired of needing help.
I'm tired of remembering.
I'm tired of worrying.
I'm tired of being different.
I'm tired of cutting.
I'm tired of missing people.
I'm tired of feeling worthless.
I'm tired of wanting...

For years now I've known I was different. I have always felt there was just something that was weird about me. I thought I had figured it out about two years almost three years ago, I was 12 and I had the biggest crush on this girl and so I told myself I was a lesbian and for about a year I went with it and I felt almost whole for once. Soon the same feelings came back though and I had that gaping hole in me again. I didn't know what to do so I just went on living and telling myself it would get...

At the moment, I'm annoyed at both myself, and a few other people. I'm sorry that I rant so much, but it honestly helps, since I'm too much of a damn coward to actually face the people I'm annoyed at . I don't want conflict and I don't want to be misunderstood, so it's best to forget after ranting.

Like, I'm annoyed at myself because there are people that I can't say no to. I don't know how to say no and then I do things and then sometimes I don't like what I've done and sometimes...

I love the Black Veil Brides.
They have inspired me to embrace who I am, being different and being proud of it, and their lyrics have been my strength and my backbone through so much in my life.

So, I wanted to know; What is your go-to band, and why?

Sometimes I feel so much freer. It's only been a few days but my mood has lifted incredibly, I've been spending more time with my friends, I've been reading more, I've had a couple of ideas for stories that I want to write, I've been enjoying my classes more... It can't just be a coincidence....

But other times I feel so guilty. It's my fault everything went wrong. I should still be with him. I should be changing myself, trying to fix things, trying to make him happy.
...

well i just cant handle anything anymore my life is crashing down im a wreck i just want to die.

Her blood trickles down in liquid harmony
Lost in all the agony,
With a broken heart, she could never be happy
But she knew it was her fate
A lonely road to her escape

The bright new silver shined in the moon's light
She learned to try, to try to live
But she didn't stand a chance
As for her love, he'd have to forgive

She took one last breath, and gasped at her final release
As her pain bled out, her inner wounds...

Thinking back on some things, I've realized that I'm pretty stupid. But not in a mean way, more in a "that-was-really-dumb!" way.

Like, I've once thought that Elton John and John Lennon were the same person.

I've also thought that Oli from Bring Me The Horizon was Andy Sixx from Black Veil Bride were the same person.

When on the train from Ottawa to Toronto I thought Lake Ontario was the ocean.

I once questioned why flies die...

I guess you could say I'm one of "them," the "popular girls"...

Everyone says that being popular is the best thing ever, but it isn't. Here's some examples:

1.) If I was to wear a cute v-neck shirt from Victoria's Secret, I'm suddenly a slut.

2.) My best friend and me get in a fight, I'm suddenly a bitch.

3.) Someone won't leave me alone and I tell them to, I'm suddenly a jerk.

People say that if you're popular,...