I received a phone call from WINZ. Miracle of miracles, it was actually GOOD news! Apparently all the right buttons have now been pushed, and I should get paid tomorrow. At which point I will need to check to make sure that part of my benefit is still being redirected in order to pay my rent. Just to make sure. Don't want my landlord to end up short or whatever.

Leisa came over. She said a lot of stuff. All stuff I've heard before, none stuff that I'm particularly interested in hearing...

So, my benefit didn't go in, at all. The money from Keys did though, so I had just enough to make a payment on my fine repayment thingy. But aside from that . . . I have nothing.

I rang WINZ and apparently they're a hop, skip and a jump away from approving my Invalid's Benefit, but they need somebody at the actual office to do that hopping, skipping, and jumping. They said that they'd get somebody to ring me back.

It has to be done before Friday, because my application...

I was doing great but then it all came crashing down. It keeps going back and forth. I don't know what to do anymore. One day im happy and want to live my life, and be a good person. The next i feel like cutting my skin up and just dying. I don't know what to do right now.

Today all i want to do is cut. Just feel the relief, and everything to go away for a couple minutes. Was depressed at school today, used the whole 'im just tired'. It worked.

I think i'll just give...

(My cat is trying to sit on my laptop. Very helpful, not.)

So I'm a bit worried. I know my flatmate's been self-harming, but it's not that deep and she isn't threatening to kill herself or anything and it is giving her brief respite from the voices, so I don't see the issue.

However her keyworker came over today and said that her doctor said that if she continues to self-harm she'll be put in hospital, and taken back out of independent living. They also think that the...

So much, you have no idea. Nekocon (it's a convention) is in November! Jon and I have to get to work with planning. One thing I've learned? Every Nekocon plan we make falls through at the last minute, never fails. We had 10 backup plans last year and every one of them went down the drain.

Frank has a hotel room already and is pre-ordering his weekend pass today. Wynter is selling her dirtbike for some extra Nekocon cash, and is still building her amazing cosplay. She'll be staying...

My chest hurts so badly again, I can breathe a lot better than yesterday but it's still horrible. I wish my mom would listen rather than going 'oh there's nothing wrong with you, just go upstairs' :/

School starts tomorrow. Somebody shoot me now.

I don't know what I'm going to do, how I'm going to hold up. Between all the hard classes, driving school, and a new "excersize plan" I don't know if I'll have time to breath.

E is being optimistic. We met at my old highschool last year, and now I'm moving to a new highschool, (it's a "magnet...

Gosh. I just love the stereotype that just because I'm not straight and I am "female" that I'm attracted to all the other females that are close to me. Thanks mom! But alas, no. As much as I consider Kidd to be hot and I enjoy sharing sexual jokes with her and flirting, I wouldn't touch her because instead of being someone I want a sexual relationship with, she's my friend, my rock when I need someone because I'm hurting. Or Aija, my bestie. I'll gladly share sexual jokes with her, but...

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I'm still in a pretty decent mood.
I polished off that party mix last night. Which I mildly regret tonight, because it was nothing short of sugary deliciousness.

I washed my bloody jewellery in the shower tonight. It is now all clean and dry, and I am pleased. Practically every scab has been picked at least once. They're nearly healed, I reckon by the time Friday comes it'll just be dry skin and scars.

I started reading The Stand again because I'm temporarily...