So.

Some yellow-bellied cur has narked on me. Some rapscallion worthy of digestion in the stomach pit of the abyssal wyrm. Indeed.

The important thing, is to find out who. And once I find out who, then with that person, I am no longer friends.

I received a call from a withheld number at 08:04AM this morning, so I answered, and it was Judy, asking me to bring in all the medication I haven't taken. I said I would, but then after I hung up, I thought, you...

Well, yesterday was interesting. Sort of. So Leisa finally got us our waste-water pipe, and I was basically dancing around the house going "yaaay". We did a load of towels and it was all good, so I assumed I was safe to do the first (of many) load of my own washing. Anywho, we both left the house. Me, because yesterday was Mum's birthday and I was going over to visit her, and Sam, because she wanted to go to Southmall. Well, whatever.

I was almost at the Otahuhu bus depot,...

I am so sad today i am tired of hanging on everyone says the know i can do it cause I dont think I can. everyone is telling me to stay strong well it is hard to be strong. I keep on caving I keep on giving in to the thoughts and I dont want to but the urges are just so bad and they just keep on getting worse. I am trying so hard to hang on for everyone else but I just dont want to do it anymore. I have never been this sad the urges have never been this bad. I just want to give in. I am tired of...

I miss having multiple, multiple reasons to laugh and smile every day, I miss seeing your face, your eyes, every single day. I miss feeling your hand in mine, I miss being happy to be alive in the morning, I miss not lying when I said “I’m doing great” or “I’m fine”. I miss feeling loved, I miss everything.
I miss being in a good place. I miss not wanting to cut through my skin, day in and day out. I miss being h a p...

The ones who I think are my main creepers, anyway. It's nice to know who you guys are, and I don't at all have a problem with your ninja-style blog reading.

I want. To do. My washing. So bad.
I have temporarily given up on showering, which makes me feel yuck, but the reality is, there's no point having a shower and getting all nice and clean, and then only having dirty clothes to put on. I really, really hope that Leisa brings the waste-water pipe tomorrow, then I can do...

Well im ok, i think. Been super busy with school. I still have good grades which really surprises me..
I cut again this past week. On my wrist for the first time in like a year, my friend noticed and made me promise not to do it again. The fact that i promised made me want to do it even more.. I think i'll just hide it better.

The last week i have had suicidal thoughts again. I hate how the just randomly come back. I wish they'd just stop. They come as soon as im starting...

I am really struggling i want to hurt myself so much. i am supposed to meet with my guidance counsellor again monday morning but i dont know if i can make it through today let alone make it till monday. I cannot do this life is just to hard. im ready to call it quits once and for all. Nobody understands the just say it will get better well it wont get better it never will. I AM JUST DONE. i guess life is just giving me what i deserve. but i dont need this i dont need anyone. no one needs me. i am...

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The crazy thing about being this high is you just can't comprehend other people's depression. I mean, generally I can empathise, even though I'm really not very good at it. I do try. But I read all this stuff about how other people are really low and they want to die and their life isn't worth living, and there's a part of me that says, CAN'T YOU SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL EVERYTHING IS? HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE?

Because all I can see at the moment is how good things are. I can see how my bed...

Hey, this is just a random request. I know that there are some of you out there following my blog, and I would like to know who you are so I can return the favour. If you are a regular reader of this blog, please comment, or write on my wall, or PM me or something, so that I know.

Thanks!