Just got out of bed, have to post this now.

Last night I lit a fire in our recycling bin. Excellent to watch. Needless to say, the bin is no more. My flatmate called the fire service, the police, the crisis team, and Leisa.

The police said if they were called back I would be arrested for reckless endangerment but at that time they weren't going to do anything. The fire service said that at least there was nothing malicious about the fire - as in, I wasn't trying to...

E & I fought for the first time last night. At first it was just a stupid habit of mine that was annoying him, but it quickly morphed into something worse. He told me that my sadness is hurting him, and our relationship. I’ve been asking about whether or not it was bothering him recently, and he always denied being in any emotional pain what so ever. When I asked what had changed, he said...

So last night, 12 hours in bed. Not all of them sleeping (obviously), but I didn't haul ass out of bed until after 11:30am. Much like yesterday. And I still have that half awake/eyelids feel heavy feeling.

My cat was being very cuddly this morning. I enjoy him, he's an excellent feline. He curled up on my shoulder whilst I was laying in bed so I spent a while laying with my face in a furball. He's a very good smelling furball.

I went for walkies on the hard shoulder...

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Well, in other news, my cellphone just died last night. As in, it ran out of battery, but then, after being charged, it never turned on again. It is now in many, many pieces courtesy of my hammer, because to be honest, replacing it with a cheap phone is much cheaper than paying for it to fixed.

And anyway. So I got up this morning (just), and tried to eat breakfast. I managed about half my bowl of cereal before feeling too sick to continue. I'm not hungry in the slightest to be completely...

So, my flatmate is using my laptop to do Zumba. I don't mind at all, I downloaded it years ago and to be honest I'm just glad that someone's actually using it. As a result, I'm writing this entry on my iPod.

Last night I got completely, totally, absolutely shit-faced. It. Was. Awesome. Luke came over, Maria didn't because she's lame, and our neighbour Poleta came over instead. So we spent a few hours drinking, I had somewhere between eight and ten drinks. We also got very, very stoned,...

I fucking quit I am done. I cant do this anymore. I am so sad. I dont know what to do anymore. I just think it would be best if I quit on everything. I dont know what else to do it seems like the only reasonable answer. I cry myself to sleep every night I dont know what else to do. I am sitting here crying in class. I dont find joy in anything anymore. All my friends know there is something wrong but when they ask me I just ignore them. I dont talk much anymore cause I am scared everytime I try...

Last week I had a job interview for Matalan (clothes/homeware shop for those of you who are deprived ) and I got the job! It's going to be 8+ hours a week until Christmas, and then they'll decide if they want to keep me on or not. Funny since, when the trainer person was showing the group of us around the store and pointing things out, I was looking at the homeware we walked past and thinking how reasonably priced it is and that I'd totally shop in there when I move out.

Now, less...

I am ready to give up the fight i honestly dont know why or how im still here after last night. I cut so much last night. I was crying and shaking and hyperventilating last night. I hit rock bottom yesterday and i dont nor will i continue on anymore. i cant handle anything anymore. im just done. I cannot do this anymore its either i let myself do it slowly or do it fast and by my own hands. i just feel so alone and so unwanted. i feel dead inside. I AM SO FUCKING DONE.

I cant go on like this anymore. I am happy on the outside but on the inside I am breaking. I cant go on living like this. I cant go on living period. I am so unhappy. I feel like there is no reason to live anymore. I should just end it all tonight then all my pain will be over cause I just cant do this anymore. I did not go to any of my classes yesterday i sat in the bathroom and cried when my friends saw me I gave them the silent treatment. My guidance counsellor found me in the bathroom and she...