Lately ive been...pretty down.Ive been crying a lot as well, I feel alone and just bad all the time ive relapsed with my problems too...I wanna go back to being fixed again....I also might of adopted another problem or two...idk if nail biting is one...I most likely wont be in chat because my Pc is on an Tv and i dont want my parents to walk in and find out about my problems...I'm going to try to post very often on here also...I ran out of paper in my last diary, everything I feel most likely will...

I got home yesterday afternoon around 3pm. I'm back on my meds. I slept really well, only woke up twice, and only one nightmare. An improvement on the rest of the week, to be sure.

There's one thing that's bothering me though. My flatmate has been told that in a month, she's being put into supported accomodation. That means that I have to decide whether I want to stay here on my own (and pay more rent, although WINZ will help with that), or get a new flatmate and remain at my current...

So, right when I think everything is going great, everything goes horribly wrong. I decided to go to the McDaniels Center. Its actually not that bad, not that bad at all. I think I'm going to enjoy it. I finally got everything where I wanted it, and I just found out right after school, that I'm summoned to court Thursday. It really upsets me. My dad said he was going to take my side, and that he dosen't think that they will send me to jail because I'm pregnant, but I'm expecting the worse, and it...

Well im doing ok again. I've been going up and down lately.

Right now the reason im happy is because i like someone at my school. Lets call him R. I told one of my friends the other day. Then in like the last day or so, i've been talking to him a lot. R keeps poking me in the ribs, and smiling at me. Then when i was saying bye to him he gave me a hug. I keep wondering if he likes me back. :/

Today marks 3 weeks without Self Harm. I almost relapsed yesterday,...

So I was wanting to do home school, because getting sick all the time was killing my grades, well I had everything figured out, until the day I was going to inroll, my boyfriend Decided that he didn't want me to, he wanted me to switch me schools and still have me going to public school. I was so excited about being able to do it, just to be let down again. It really makes me upset that since I've became pregnant, its been a lot harder to actually get out and do the normal daily things that I could...

So last night I was over at a friends house, to watch the Walking Dead, and his dog jumped on my tummy. I thought it was fine until I started bleeding...I came home, took a shower, and ask Joan what to do. I ended up having to go to the hospital, and they said I had a "Threatened Miscarriage." It was VERY scary to think that I haven't even had the chance to get to know this little life in me, and I could lose it already. Turns out everything was okay. Stress was a main cause, it just didnt'...

Yep. According to my boyfriend's sister, we're both just losers with no lives who don't know how to grow up. Why are we losers with no lives? Because we're going to an anime convention together, and apparently anyone who goes to a convention is a loser with no life.

Why does going to a convention to have fun make us losers? We became official boyfriend and girlfriend at last year's convention, so it's already something special for us. The stereotypes about anime conventions...

Three doses. Three doses of pills were added to my collection. I haven't done that in quite a long time.

I don't even feel suicidal. I've felt down. But not suicidal.

So why the hell am I still storing pills? What the hell is this?

So, I have offically started my blog. I am new to all of this, but I figured if others read this, they could either learn something, or be able to give advice, so why not. Yesterday was pretty stressful for me, and the baby. Jordan and I had gotten in to a huge fight, and I thought I was going to end up being kicked out, but after awhile, we both calmed down, and made up. I hate it when we fight, and I fear, that if we don't pull this together when the baby comes, we might be fighting in front of...

I guess I will make a quick run down of everything that has happend up to this point. My name is Danielle, I'm 17 years old, a senior in highschool, and I'm soon to be a teen mom. The first person to honestly know was my big sister Heaven. She helped me buy a test and she read it after I had taken it, being as she has already had 3 kids, her first at 16, she didn't do the typical yelling, but she did give me and my boyfriend Jordan "The talk about pregnancy" I was pretty odd hearing it...