Finally December, everyones just talking about christmas. It's just going to be stressful and full of family arguments, reminds of how much everyone hates me and why we don't see the family except for christmas.

Mom's just been having a go at me all day, reminding me how worthless i am.
I don't see a point in anything, in christmas, people just disappoint and they wonder why I won't trust anyone. Being alone is easier and it's not like I get a choice lately anyway, just shut up...

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Karina and Jeremy's wedding was today. She was beautiful, he handsome, basically they looked exactly how a couple looks when you fantasise about weddings.

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But, I may have made a breakthrough. Whilst I was laying on my bed, clutching my head because I had another headache I realised . . . it's likely to be eye-strain. Now, this is not good news. I got new lenses only a year or so ago, and at 24, my eyes shouldn't be changing that fast. But I'm keeping well hydrated, so it isn't dehydration, and I notice the headaches get worst when I try and read. So I suppose a trip to the optometrist is due in the not too distant future.

Tuesday -...

Cut my arm up. Want to overdose. Want to get better. Want to die. Want to cry. I hate this cycle.


I can't keep going.

Okay, so, periods are really gross, do not like. I mean, seriously, who would be glad to have to deal with a load of icky. . . stuff . . . and suchlike. /rant.

Apparently Leisa is probably coming over later on today, so I will update about the wedding clothes thing later. Awkward enough as it is, now I have to do it while I have my period. Could not be a much worse situation, in my opinion.

Have lots of cavefish. Banking once I hit 1000, because I'm not wielding a weapon...

By the way, this isnt my life, this is a Mad Libs version... xD

What a day this was! This morning before school, my lunchbox broke, and I had to sing all the way to school. Then the teacher announced that we would be having a test next week on 1110 units of our textbook.
When I was drinking to the cafeteria, I stepped in pink files. I couldn't get the flies off my shoes! I opened my lunch sack, and then I realized that I had grabbed my leftover lunch from last week. The only...

So, I knew I was going to get my period around now, because for the last year or so I've spotted for a couple of days beforehand.

Was not prepared for the pain. Feels absolutely crippling and I slept basically all day because it was too much to do anything else with. Thank goodness Leisa didn't call to take me out today or anything, I would not have survived. Nearly cried. Nearly threw up. At one point, almost fainted into sleep. The pain was, quite seriously, that bad. It's not as...

Ugh I almost fell back again
for no particular reason.
But i couldn't find any razors or knives, an i was literally writhing around on the floor, crying. I burnt my mouth with soup and tried to do the salt and ice thingo . It only made me feel worse. The result of this hold back of the urge was me hydro-pump vomiting on our walnut trees. gross.
it has been almost a month since i last self harmed, and, to be honest, i don't feel good. i mean, It's good being free of the guilt,...