Renewing this thing once more. I actually plan on writing in this more 'cause I feel down when I see no notes on my Tumblr and because I now have greater access to this site (though, due to recent unforseen events, I fear that privilage is going to go away (let's cross our fingers and hope to god not (even though, knowing god, he'll do it anyways (even though I don't even believe god exsists so (I'll tell you what, god, if you exsist, don't let anything happen with the entire other forum and the...

It is hot. It is humid. It is summer.
My washing is in the machine.
I got new shorts and a singlet.
I didn't buy much as far as groceries go because I haven't been hungry, and to be honest, what's the point of buying food if you're not going to eat it?

My sleep is all over the place. Some nights I sleep in excess of 10 or 12 hours. Some nights (like last night) it feels like I don't sleep at all. The weather doesn't help. Taking my meds sometimes helps, but I've...

I don't like posting things about my own sadness because I'm here to help other people.
But.

I just need to rant a bit.

So. After my ex left me and put me through an extensive amount of pain, I was finally happy. Single, and happy all by myself.
I was happy with myself and I was content with everything. I thought I had healed from the pain my ex put me through and I thought I had moved on.
And I was DEPRESSION FREE for the FIRST time in 5 years. Ugh....

What's the point..I reach out to people, I ask for help and I get nothing... If i'm lucky someone talks to me and just has a go at me over trivial little things. Sometimes I wonder why i bother
Maybe i'm meant to be alone, maybe this is how things are supposed to be, maybe i'll get used to it.
I should just stop trying, things are easier that way.

From today until after New Year's, I am going to be so busy. My best friend came home from college for Christmas (she went out of state very far away), and now that she's back from visiting family in another state I'll be spending her last few days home with her. Today I have to pack my stuff and get ready to go. Then, as soon as I come home, I have to get ready again for Jon to come pick me up and whisk me away to spend New Year's together. I'll be spending the night at his house on New Year's...

You're stupid and pathetic and everyone would be better without you Charli. All you ever do is ruin everything for everyone, your family and "friends" remind you enough. No one would notice if you dissapeared and most definitely wouldn't care. There's no point anymore, no point to anything especially when you're not wanted..

i need to cut.
I cant cut.
what can i do?
my brain is driving me mental.
I need a way out
please
help me.

Our car broke down, and we got stranded at a guy from my schools house. It was awkwardly fun... ish. He made me smile for the first time in a while. Like, in a friendly way. it was good, i guess

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I'll start with Christmas first. It was cool, any other day. I got the clothes I wanted, a lava lamp, season 1 of Law & Order: SVU, Sims, and books. So basically besides family time I was reading Tilt by Ellen Hopkins (Finished it!) and playing Sims all day. It was awesome. And my sister liked the gift I got her. We even got gifts for my niece even though technically she's not here yet. Expect another blog entry when she arrives, and maybe a forum post.

But Christmas Eve? Yesterday...