My flatmate is moving today. Our property manager hasn't shown up to do the final inspection for her, but I plan to keep the place immaculate, so there's no doubt that she will get her bond back. As she's said, I will miss her. Probably not as much as she thinks I will, because the place she's moving to is within walking distance, but still. It's going to be different, we moved in here together and we've been here for six months. So, things are about to change and be different.

I...

Well, more or less.
This week, I did everything I intended to do with my money, and I still have a little left over so I'll probably go to the bakery for lunch. Good times.

The only negative, as far as money is concerned, is that we still haven't received a power bill, and I am shit-scared about how big it's going to be. We've been here since the end of July, so that's 6 months worth of power for two people - it's easily a grand. I plan to start putting $30 aside every week...

Huh, just realised, Valentine's is in a month . . . I have never, ever had a date on Valentine's. Oh well, forever alone.

Also, it got to about 5:30pm before I realised that today is Karina's birthday. As soon as I remembered I sent her a text. And for once, I actually got a reply. That's always nice.

I found out why we had a sudden influx of flies, despite our anti-bug-spray-automatic-wall-thingy - earlier this week, my flatmate was cleaning out the freezer of things...

So i left for around a month. Just needed some time to myself, and try to feel better myself before i tried to help others. I am still not doing that well, but i missed all you guys, and i feel like maybe helping you guys will help me in some way. So hey everyone!

Update about me:
I'm struggling. a lot... I cut for the first time in 3 months last thursday. i've been feeling low. I'm so disappointed in myself for cutting. i had so many urges that week, i dont know why i gave...

Well, sort of. Didn't fall asleep until around 5am (accursed weather), and resultantly didn't get up until just after midday.

I then spent approximately two hours mopping fly shit off the ceilings. On the bright side, the ceilings look like they've been freshly painted. However, I was literally dripping sweat the entire time. But it's done now, and that's not something that needs doing very often.

Then, just now, I cleaned my room (minor task really) and vaccuumed it,...

Ooh my life is spiraling down agaian! Fudder mucker!
So, ok, since I last posted, I moved again, I started shit with my friends, I got a cold and potentially lyringitis, I became suicidal so many times, I realized what I have to do to make things right with my mind and my relationship, and TH is down more than ever which sickens me!
Ok, moving. I moved from being, like 20 minutes away from school in a horrible, cold, ugly big space to being in a tiny, warm, cramped up 3 mintute walk...

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But, that's sort of okay. Me and my flatmate were melting on the lounge around 3 this afternoon, when Tristan texted and asked if he could come over. Being as we were doing nothing and simply trying not to become pools of human, we said sure. He got here and he was like, you guys want to go for a swim? We were like, at a beach? And he said yes, and we said fuck yeah!, changed into appropriate attire, and went out.

Maybe it was later than three? Must have been, because it was after...

I wake up really early. Really early. Like usually, between 4:30am and 5:30am. It's not even deliberate, it's a lightness thing. It doesn't matter what time I go to sleep, because it gets light around then, so I wake up then.

On the bright side, I don't get up then, so often after a few hours I'll fall asleep again. The result? I usually get out of bed around half past eleven. And then just keep feeling tired all the time. Not really a lot I can do about it.

Saw my...

Exams start tommorrow :/ so nervous, I needs A's this year! Biology tommorrow, i think i know the stuff but i have a feeling it'll be really hard.

Feeling so lonely, if i spend more than 2 minutes downstairs my parents are shouting at me to go and revise. At school i feel so alone, i have friends but i don't know it's not the same anymore, i'm always by myself and so down all of the time.

Alone, going to fail my exams, pathetic...