I feel like I'm just going in circles, repeating the same mistakes, over and over again, with no way out, and with no hope of something brighter. I feel like I'm wasting so much. Everybody always talks about all this potential they see, that I have, and I know it's there. And I know it's wasted on me.

What's the point of intellect, if you can't apply it? What's the point of musical skill and talent, if you hardly ever get out your instruments, or sit down and compose? What's the point...

I'm scared to get close to some one. I'm scared I'll let them down. I'm scared I'll do something to cause them pain. I hate to see the look on others faces when I let them down. I don't want to do that. I want everyone to be happy, but doing so I know I wont be able to make everyone happy. The idea of getting close to some one and causing them pain scares me to death. I don't want to do that to anyone. I have problems getting close to others because of that. I'm scared they wont like me. I'm scared...

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I miss it. The release. It's the best feeling I've ever had. It made me feel sane. That I was okay. It made me feel safe. The pain was gone and I no longer had to deal with it. Only for a little while though. It made me feel good, relaxed, and calm. I could go on like nothing happened. The only thing I had to worry about was the cuts and scars. Sometimes I wish I never stopped. It was my way to let my feelings out. I wasn't hurting anyone. I loved it. It never hurt. It was the greatest feeling in...

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My new bed came today! So, as I'm using Google Chrome to do this entry, hopefully I'll be able to show you pics.



This is where everything was after the bed collapsed.



This is the rest of my room, because I'm a show-off....

Wow, TeenHelp. It’s been quite some time since I last posted here, and my life as changed in all sorts of ways.

Well, let’s with the positive then. I started learning to drive around Christmas time, got my permit & everything. I got my braces off in November, and plans for me to get a car before/on my 16th birthday are in place…uh yeah. I can’t think of much positive at the moment. :c

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I read people's blogs, and sometimes I see tumblrs, and all sorts of stuff on the internet. And I think, I love these people so much, and I guess they have no idea. You're all beautiful, all of you. And you're all worth so much more than you think you are. And I want people to walk up to you every day, and tell you how amazing you are, and tell you that you're loved, and hug you, and be there for you. I want you all to know. Because there are people on this forum whom I have loved in the past, and...

Today was okay. I got out of school early for finals. The only good part about that is my last class of the day was lunch and some of my friends are in there with me. So is Paul> and Alex I hate the way she looks at me. She tries not to look mad but she does. Paul let me wear his sweater ( which I am now in love with) and she looked mad. He let me wear it to the class I had before lunch because I was freezing and he was complaining he was to hot. She is getting on my nerves because she...