I stopped cutting. I brought the knife back downstairs and into the kitchen where it belongs. But now I feel like crying. It's a bitter-sweet victory...

So the girl i love says shes single, then she says shes taken, then she says shes single. I ask her friend to check and she says she has a boyfriend. But the girl i love says she is single. I love her so much! And now she won't talk to me! UGH! Why can't we just be together? I feel like ugh just dying...

I've only been on teenhelp for a couple days and I already feel better. Before I was confused and had no clue what to do. And I went on and I talked to someone. I unloaded everything. I feel weightless now. If only i could always feel that way...