To Him: Broken Promises. :/

I hate it when people go through and break their promises to you, and they do it while knowing that it's hurting you. Why do people act like that?! Am I really so bad to be around that you need to go and smoke pot so you can deal with me? And if so, then why don't you just break my heart for the 3rd time and get it over with so you can move on in your life. Or do I need to break my own heart and push you away? I'd hate to have to do that, but if it needs to be done, then I'll do it. I hate that you sit here and you're gonna do more harm to yourself than anything by going and smoking. So what if it's better than cigarettes, that doesn't mean I want you to go off and smoke. I hate it when you do this, and I hate sitting there and watching you fall and not being able to help. You don't talk to me about anything, and we've been together for about a year now. What do you want me to do? I don't want to see you hurt or hurt you, but I have no other choice than to sit here in the background and contemplate about what's going on. So what if you think I'm smart and pretty, and so what if you call me baby girl now. It means nothing if you're gonna sit there and smoke pot. You've changed so much, grown up alot more even, and yet you sit here and fall back into your same patterns. I don't want to sit around and watch you smoke yourself into ablivian. It hurts! I hate just sitting there while you're off smoking, and I wont ever sink back down to that level. I've kept my promise to you for this long, so why couldn't you keep yours?