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god damnit. -.-
Posted June 21st 2010 at 10:19 PM by plk524
Well, my dad is back up to his old shit, and I'm pissed. Scared the fuck out of me and whatever. I don't know what to do. Why muct a father molest/rape their children? Who the hell knows. I thought for sure that he was completely done with that shit, but I was very very wrong. What am I supposed to do? I'm still trying to get over being raped by this guy that I knew for two years. He raped me for a year. I never told anybody how long. But once I told somebody, I other people found out. It's scary as hell. I hate it. I hate myself. i want to go back to my self harm ways, and I could. I mean it. I don't have a boyfriend to stop me, and my best friend started it again, so why not? This really freakin' sucks. Why does this shit have to happen? I'm sick of being touched. I just want to curl into a ball. I want my t-shirt instead of this damned tank top. I feel like everybody is staring at me, and I fucking hate it. -.- idk what the fuck to do, and honestly, I think I'm better off dead at the moment. And typing this shit in public probably wasn't a good idea, but at least it's difficult for people to read. I mean, hell, what's the worst that could come of it? My mom already knows that my fucking father is molesting me. Otherwise I wouldn't of came home yesterday. I hate people knowing at this shit. I really do. But at least on here, nobody knows me. And they can't really judge me for what I say. Or they could, but I don't know them, so it's perfectly fine with me. I don't know, I am a very conflictive person...
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