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Posted October 14th 2014 at 05:05 PM by Most Likely
Okay, so apparently it's totally okay to be a friend under somebody's care and watchful eye. And when they're nice and fun and shit. But when you need something, people you put your heart and mind in mysteriously vanish, bothered with more important bussiness or people.
I feel like I expect and demand too much from people and get attached too quickly and strongly. I fell in that trap few times before, but I somehow never felt as bad as I do now.
I started wondering if maybe it's something with me, maybe I'm a wrong person to get close to. Maybe I'm too lousy? I don't know, I don't fucking know.
I'm fed up with being second class support. I'm tired of being a runner up, constantly in somebody or something's fucking shadow. Everytime it ends like that. Every time. EVERY SINGLE ONE.
Why am I even getting angry, its not like it changes something.
Well, up phase has ended. Time to get back to being selfharmish, suicidal, depressed, anxious and irritated over slightest things.
Smh.
I feel like I expect and demand too much from people and get attached too quickly and strongly. I fell in that trap few times before, but I somehow never felt as bad as I do now.
I started wondering if maybe it's something with me, maybe I'm a wrong person to get close to. Maybe I'm too lousy? I don't know, I don't fucking know.
I'm fed up with being second class support. I'm tired of being a runner up, constantly in somebody or something's fucking shadow. Everytime it ends like that. Every time. EVERY SINGLE ONE.
Why am I even getting angry, its not like it changes something.
Well, up phase has ended. Time to get back to being selfharmish, suicidal, depressed, anxious and irritated over slightest things.
Smh.
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