I realized today I might be crazy. Not the kind I always knew I am-in short, not the good kind. The bad kind. Voices in my head? Kind of. If imaginary 'friends'-such as book characters-that follow me around twenty-four seven count. I've always known they weren't real, and that it was all in my head and everything, but it...comforted me to know they were there. I've never really been close to anyone, I've always been alone.... Sure, I had my family. But I'm different than they are, not as...confident...

I just reread my last post... Melodramatic. That's the only way to describe it. I hardly even knew him... And now I have an awesome girlfriend that loves me, so it's all okay now. Okay, maybe not *all*. TOO MUCH STRESS! School, my sisters, friends. *sigh* Everyone seems to expect too much from me. I am getting straight A's, I basically raise my sisters because my mom's too busy with her boyfriend (fighting, making out... yeah...), I'm supposed to be getting a job, I'm in the National Honor Society,...

A lot has happened...my first real crush, moving 1600 miles...I feel like crying. He misses me, and I miss him too. We weren't actually dating, and I didn't find out until I had already moved that he likes me too. He talks to me, and then won't talk to me for a couple of days/a week, and everytime I talk to him I feel like crying because I will never know if we were supposed to be together. The fact that I am 15 and Anthony's 18 doesn't help matters because I can't even tell my mom about him; I...

The closer I get to being 15, the more I feel like it is a huge step in my life. Why? I don't know. It just feels like fifteen will be a whole lot older. I know that it isn't, that I will be the same person. It's just a little weird. Everybody keeps asking me what I want. The problem is, I don't really want anything. Material objects are nice, but not really what my life is about. I just like being around people who love me.
That reminds me, I joined Dragon Caves (dragcave.net) and I want...

My birthday is in exactly a month! I'm gonna be 15!
Back to normal news...haha
Today during lunch, Matthew was staring at me. This was pointed out to me by my friends Donna and Courtney. Donna said "The new kid in our English and Bio classes is staring at you, wasn't he your best friend in fifth grade or something?" I confirmed this and looked to see if he was staring. As soon as I looked his direction, he quickly looked away and started a conversation with his friends....

I guess no one had anything weird happen to them, haha.
I sprained my left wrist yesterday. It hurts a little but I should be ok in a couple of days. I just wanted to check in so...ttfn!

...I've been thinking about my dad today, mostly because I have to go to his house tomorrow. I'm really not looking forward to it. Why? Because he is always passed out drunk on the couch, and recently, he might have been taking pain medication from many different doctors to get high, although no one will tell me the truth because they think I can't handle it, even though I have known for almost 4 years that my dad is a jerk and that I should have nothing to do with him. I want to cut all ties with...

Someone finally posted answers to my questions! Thank you, Jenn x for your fabulous answers!

"1: What is your name? Jen!
2: Why do you read my blogs? Sometimes...
3: Dinosaurs or purple flying ninjas? Purple flying ninjas!
4: Pirates or ninjas? Ninjas of course

6: Favorite color? Blueeeee

8: Favorite random word? BAZZIN!"
Made my day.

Now that I have done what I promised I would do... I guess it's...

Well, nobody answered my questions so I can't really post anything here about that...
Lots of things have happened since I last posted. I had to miss school yesterday because my little sister who is 9 has tonsilitis, and no one else could stay with her. I didn't get to go to my Priori Incantatem (Harry Potter Club) party yesterday because of that, and I'm not going to lie, I got a little emotional over it (hormones). I actually went up to my room and cried the entire hour that I would've been...

Today is the last day for my favorite teacher to teach us. It makes me kind of sad, but she will still be on campus so...
I can see that some people have been reading these. That makes me happy...I feel kind of important now.
Yesterday was boring. I hate staying home from school. It gives me nothing to do, and instead of doing homework (like I should be) I just get on the computer and talk to people the whole time. I am such a procrastinator.
Since people have been reading...