Changes changes changes..... 4-27-11

I just reread my last post... Melodramatic. That's the only way to describe it. I hardly even knew him... And now I have an awesome girlfriend that loves me, so it's all okay now. Okay, maybe not *all*. TOO MUCH STRESS! School, my sisters, friends. *sigh* Everyone seems to expect too much from me. I am getting straight A's, I basically raise my sisters because my mom's too busy with her boyfriend (fighting, making out... yeah...), I'm supposed to be getting a job, I'm in the National Honor Society, my mom thinks I need to spend less time texting my girlfriend and more time talking to real friends (not my fault they're always so busy and Rachel and I get along better than I get along with most of my friends), other things I'm not allowed to mention without permission from the people they involve, my teachers are calling me smart and expecting me to be perfect... I can't think of anything else, but I'm sure there's more. I want to bang my head against a desk until I pass out for a while, just to get away from it all. I wish I hadn't moved so I could see Rachel more. I miss her a lot. I miss everyone. This town is nice, but it's not home. That makes me wonder where home is.... I guess the easy answer would be where Rachel is. And it makes sense. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore....