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I have been on TH for a year today. I just want to say thank you to everyone who has helped me during my time. Or who i have chatted with. I have felt welcome. I have made so many great friends and hope to make more while im here. Thank you.

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In the past weeks i reallized my counsellor wasnt helping me much. I told my parents and today was my last appointment with her. Im starting a new therapist next week.I don't even want a new one. :/
I don't know if im really getting better or not. Somedays i feel fine, then others i feel suicidal again. Or daytime i feel happier, night i feel horrible.
I have off school for the rest of the week and my parents still don't trust me.. I wish i could be trusted..

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Some days i want to live my life, and others i don't get why im here, and want to die. Today was the latter. People and things at school almost made me cry, almost walked out of class because tears threatened to come. I can't do this all day tomorrow. I can't do this ever. Im making plans again.. Why won't this end?


I think i'm gonna tell all my friends at school tomorrow that i don't want friends anymore. i need to be alone before i die....

Had an ok weekend. Started lying about how i feel again.

Should be happy but for some reason i can’t. People tell to be happy. I feel like im incapable of being happy. I have a roof over my head, good parents, most the time good friends. And yet im still not happy. I guess my life doesnt think i deserve to be happy. Somedays i wish i was just happy like a regular person for an hour or 2. Not have my problems to worry about.

i’ve been told that im ungrateful because...

I missed everyone when TH was down. Im glad its back up. I hope everyone is doing well. I think thats all i wanted to say.