Hey everyone its been forever! I might come and check in every once in a while, i miss you guys! <3

So i'm doing pretty good. I think i am recovering for sure now. I feel so much better, stronger, and like nothing can take me down. I have amazing friends who care right now. I'm beginning to see myself as pretty, or at least trying, with the help of my best friend, lets call her S. Who is always there for me. And everything i'd want in a friend. She has helped me so much.
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So i left for around a month. Just needed some time to myself, and try to feel better myself before i tried to help others. I am still not doing that well, but i missed all you guys, and i feel like maybe helping you guys will help me in some way. So hey everyone!

Update about me:
I'm struggling. a lot... I cut for the first time in 3 months last thursday. i've been feeling low. I'm so disappointed in myself for cutting. i had so many urges that week, i dont know why i gave...

hey guys..Well as this thread says i'm going to leave for a while. I just need to figure stuff out. im gonna be on here for a little while today. Sorry guys.

See you (hopefully) in the New year!

Hope you guys are ok. <3

This week has been horrible,i've been in such a bad mood. I have snapped at the people I care about. I've been feeling so bad. They've been really understanding though. This has just been at school, at home my parents think im oh so happy and doing good. But no. Im not. My friends are worried about me. At lunch today I just sat there with my head down, I was almost in tears. My friend L, whenever someone asked whats wrong with me, would just say “She's tired”. I was just gonna sit there and not...

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Well im doing ok again. I've been going up and down lately.

Right now the reason im happy is because i like someone at my school. Lets call him R. I told one of my friends the other day. Then in like the last day or so, i've been talking to him a lot. R keeps poking me in the ribs, and smiling at me. Then when i was saying bye to him he gave me a hug. I keep wondering if he likes me back. :/

Today marks 3 weeks without Self Harm. I almost relapsed yesterday,...

Can i get even 2 days of being happy. i was fine for yesterday. But then today 1 bad thing happens and i feel like complete crap. One thing that most people wouldn't start crying about. I hate this. Hate all of this.

The thing that made me feel awful was 1 person yelling at me. Me and my mother were at a birthday party for her best friends daughter. There was a bunch of kids, i had to watch them all. On of them was driving me crazy, i think his name was Mario. I asked him how old...

Well im ok, i think. Been super busy with school. I still have good grades which really surprises me..
I cut again this past week. On my wrist for the first time in like a year, my friend noticed and made me promise not to do it again. The fact that i promised made me want to do it even more.. I think i'll just hide it better.

The last week i have had suicidal thoughts again. I hate how the just randomly come back. I wish they'd just stop. They come as soon as im starting...

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