A little update! :)

Hey everyone its been forever! I might come and check in every once in a while, i miss you guys! <3

So i'm doing pretty good. I think i am recovering for sure now. I feel so much better, stronger, and like nothing can take me down. I have amazing friends who care right now. I'm beginning to see myself as pretty, or at least trying, with the help of my best friend, lets call her S. Who is always there for me. And everything i'd want in a friend. She has helped me so much.
Some really exciting news is im going to audition (with my best friend mentioned above) for the X Factor. The auditions are in 2 weeks, and i am SUPER excited.
I still cut, but not very bad. I am trying to stop. My friends are helping, one of them is trying to stop for me, and i'm doing the same for her. Sure i am only at 6 days at the moment but i will get there.

I am so much more confident with who i am. I don't hide my true self, or at least not with friends and family. I don't care what others say anymore. About 2 weeks ago i got a couple hate messages on tumblr, and i did care. I thought about killing myself again. I remembered all thats going on in my life, and thought 'who cares?'. i told S and she didn't let me think that way. she told i can't let them get to me, and that they are just some low lives who won't do anything in life, and that i will. That i have friends and family who care and that those messages should mean anything to me, they should make me stronger.
I got another one about a week ago, and i realized her words were true. I didn't care what they said, i know i have people who care and they are just a person online. I feel like a different person since then.

I am okay. I can get through this. I hope everyone is doing okay! <3