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im not okay. (triggering SH & suicide)
Posted November 16th 2012 at 12:23 AM by Lumos.
This week has been horrible,i've been in such a bad mood. I have snapped at the people I care about. I've been feeling so bad. They've been really understanding though. This has just been at school, at home my parents think im oh so happy and doing good. But no. Im not. My friends are worried about me. At lunch today I just sat there with my head down, I was almost in tears. My friend L, whenever someone asked whats wrong with me, would just say “She's tired”. I was just gonna sit there and not say anything. My other friend kept asking whats wrong, and I finally told her about all the thoughts i've had this week. She said that she's there whenever I need her. I was really happy she was so cool about it.
I have been so down this week. I made it to the 8 week mark for SH free. I have had so many thoughts about suicide and cutting. I don't know how i've made it through this week.
I almost cut last night, I need the pain. I'll probably give in tonight. I don't want to but if it make all the thoughts and voices go away for even a minute, I'll be happy. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this.
Im starting to fall behind on my grades. I knew having good grades wouldn't last.. Neither would being happy.I don't know what to do right now.
I have been so down this week. I made it to the 8 week mark for SH free. I have had so many thoughts about suicide and cutting. I don't know how i've made it through this week.
I almost cut last night, I need the pain. I'll probably give in tonight. I don't want to but if it make all the thoughts and voices go away for even a minute, I'll be happy. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. Im starting to fall behind on my grades. I knew having good grades wouldn't last.. Neither would being happy.I don't know what to do right now.
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I'm glad your friend was cool about it
Make sure you talk to her if you need too. I think she'll be more than happy to try and support you through this. Hang in there. You can do this, okay? You're a lot stronger than you think xPosted November 16th 2012 at 01:34 PM by Palmolive
