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The wedding was beautiful. The bride had the most perfect dress, my cousin looked amazing in his kilt. My aunt and uncle came up from England so it was amazing to see them again. And as we were leaving my uncle had hugged me and was holding my hands, looking straight at me, and just asked me to please look after myself. No better way to induce tears, I had to bite my lip so hard because he looked so worried and upset. It was so good to see them again, and my aunt was beautiful.
But cheesiness...

It's been such a long day, it's only 5, and it's nowhere NEAR being over yet.

Saw the doctor this morning, had a long talk with her and explained everything that's happened in the past year or so in terms of doctors and psychiatrists and stuff and why I was so confused because every different doctor says something different and tells me I have a different problem. So she said she thinks I should try a different kind of antidepressant for two weeks, and then go back to get the dose...

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That's right, ladies and gents. Yesterday was six weeks since I last.. how do I put it. Since I last broke skin intentionally. I'd say cut myself, but I do that all the time without meaning to. I'd say hurt myself intentionally, but I did that about 5 weeks ago.
Basically it's 6 weeks free and those 6 weeks have flown. I think it's a good thing that I don't even really think about it much and haven't been eating less or wanting to overdose instead. I'm actually quite proud of myself if you...

Got a letter from college this morning. They've sent me a fucking invoice for £1285. I don't HAVE that kind of money. It's not like we have a bank account with 1200 quid to spare just sitting in case we need it. The reason for them sending me this? According to their information, SAAS aren't paying my fees. Actually, we don't know if they are yet because my application from over a month ago is still going through. They could at least have the common decency to wait until SAAS tell them whether they're...

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Really freaking sharp stabbing pain in my chest.
God.
Fucking hurts.
I lay down and it was like like "Oh wow my bed is so com- *STABBA* MOTHEROFDONKEYSHITTITWANKBOLLOCKS! "

Almost crying with the pain.
Couldn't breathe.
Still hurts but not as much as it did and not as constant. Just like little sharp stabs. Is okay when I'm sat up. Scared to lie down.
Making me panic.

Really not in the mood for a hospital visit tonight....

Posting this from my sexeh new netbook which I am completely in love with.
Living room is a mess. The walls and ceiling are all a dark brown colour with big patches of really really pale pink. Kind of like skin colour. There's a lamp and table/chairs in the corner. Two armchairs and a sofa sat in the middle and a tv in the corner. There are no curtains and the wires for the TV are poking out everywhere. Hopefully in a few months we'll have a nice white ceiling, painted walls, new couch,...

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