Saw my doctor. She kept asking things.

How have things been?
Ehh.. Alright, I guess. Bit hard. I can't stop thinking about blood. I want it all to stop. It's been so much harder than I'll ever let you or anyone else know.

Have you found yourself feeling a quite down a lot of the time?
Yeah. All I do is cry. I'm running out of reasons to smile.

What about sleeping, how's that been?
Difficult, I can't get to sleep at night and then...

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Been a good weekend. Somewhat worried about tonight. Last time I was here I spent the last two days being very suicidal.
Distractions would be good about now. Where's my notebook...

I swear if I see another one of those adverts I will actually shoot the TV and hunt down whoever is responsible for them.

Woke up at eight this morning, you know, the time I usually leave for my bus. Alarm went off at seven and yet again, while still asleep, I managed to turn it off and sleep an extra hour. This can't go on.
I went back to my usual thing of changing "My Number" on my phone to one of my friends and sending myself a text saying I didnt have to be in till half ten.
This can't keep happening like this. I've missed so much because I wake up feeling so negative that I just don't think...

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The past 4 days have been like from a dream.
A perfect, beautiful, most amazing dream.

Wednesday, Rie decided to fill my bra with Haribo, while I was wearing it, and put a condom on one of the bats hanging above my bed.





Thursday, we went into Glasgow and saw a vibrating duck and fake...