TeenHelp
Get Advice Quick Ask Support Forums Today's Posts Chat Room

Get Advice Connect with TeenHelp Resources
HelpLINK Chat and Live Help Facebook     Twitter     Tumblr     Instagram    Safety Zone
   Hotlines
   Alternatives
   Calendar


You are not registered or have not logged in
Hello guest! (Not a guest? Log in above!) As a guest you can submit help requests, create and reply to Forum posts, join our Chat Room and read our range of articles & resources. By registering you will be able to get fully involved in our community and enjoy features such as connect with members worldwide, add friends & send messages, express yourself through a Blog, find others with similar interests in Social Groups, post pictures and links, set up a profile and more! Signing up is free, anonymous and will only take a few moments, so click here to register now!



Uncategorized Entries with no category
Old

Hm.

Posted March 30th 2011 at 05:27 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck


Today was my last day at placement for a few weeks. I'm scared about going back. One of the residents is effectively dying and I know when I go back he'll more than likely have gone. It's hard. I couldn't work in there on a permanent basis, I get too attached to the residents. And I really like D. Last week I was having a conversation when behind me, D started singing "It's a long wayyyyy to Tipperaryyyyy..." Whenever you get him on the stand aid to move him from his chair to another
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 212 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

Placement

Posted March 30th 2011 at 06:46 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck


placement today. don't want to go. dont want to deal with it. ordered blades online last night. sharp. surgical. dangerous.
dont want to try anymore. so sick of feeling like this all the time. want it to stop.
blades coming with me. can't be without it. can't do this. don't make me.
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 219 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

More nightmares. Fml.

Posted March 29th 2011 at 11:43 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck

So tired. I dreamt that I was at the top of the stairs in my grandad's house. He was trying to hurt me. I thought he was going to kill me. I pushed him away from me and he tumbled down the stairs really quickly, hit his head off something at the bottom and skidded across the carpet. He was dead. I tried to call an ambulance or something but every time I dialled 999
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 199 Comments 0 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

>.<

Posted March 28th 2011 at 07:32 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck


Feels like I can't do anything right.
I should have let that car hit me today.
Or lay down at the furthest corner of the graveyard and waited to die.
Bought pills and alcohol and taken them together.
Cut too deep over as many veins as I could find.
Why didn't I? I had the chances.
I have more chances tomorrow. This time I'll take them. Home alone all day. So much at my disposal.
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 212 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

College fun.

Posted March 28th 2011 at 03:25 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck


This made me laugh so much today. I was standing with my friend and her boyfriend and we were talking about parents.
Hazel: Louise's mum doesn't really like her having a girlfriend.
Gary. Why not?
Me: My parents are religious...
Gary: Is your mum on the pill?
Me: Um...I think so.
Gary: Right, when you get in from college, you go up to her and you say "Mum, I might like to munch carpets but at least I'm not on birth control!"
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 209 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

I'm ready to give up. (Triggering)

Posted March 28th 2011 at 10:26 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated March 28th 2011 at 11:34 AM by Palmolive (Adding triggering prefix)


Sitting in college. Trying to stay awake. Today's been so long already. Cut this morning. Argued with mum. Walked to Asda and got a new pencil sharpener, pliers and a first aid kit. Had all my blades in my pocket already.
Walked to the graveyard and cried. Just lay on the ground there for a while.
Walked to a park round the corner from my old school. Sat there and took the blades out of the sharpener. Sat on the swing for a while. Just swinging and staring at the ground.
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 197 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

Work.

Posted March 27th 2011 at 10:38 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck


Working today. Really can't be bothered. Still so tired. Didn't sleep well.
Blades are coming to work with me. Won't go without them. Even if I don't use them, I refuse to not have them with me. Wouldn't be the first time I've hidden in a toilet to cut. Maybe this time the bleeding will take longer to stop. Maybe it won't stop at all.
One can only hope.
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 211 Comments 0 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

Nightmare >.<

Posted March 27th 2011 at 05:02 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck

Nightmare. Was on this little island. Was tiny. A dead seagull fell down in front of me. I thought a bigger bird just got it. But then another one fell. And another. I could see small bullet holes and blood on them. I was scared. Decided to swim back to mainland. Wasn't that far. I kept seeing birds fall down dead in front of me. A swan had a small hole in it's head. It just flopped back and it just lay there. I had to swim through a group of dead ducklings. Except they were twice the
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 191 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

Rant. Random thoughts. Meh.

Posted March 26th 2011 at 10:43 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck


Because of you.

So tired.
Doesn't matter how much I sleep, it makes no difference. I'm exhausted again hours after I wake up.
Seriously considering just going to sleep for a couple of hours just now. Parents have a thing about eating around midnight on a Saturday, my brother and I tend to steal their food. That and mum's all weird because she hasn't seen me eat today.
I'm
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 219 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
Old

Urgh.

Posted March 25th 2011 at 03:58 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck


Had placement today. One of the carers said I needed to roll up my sleeves. I said I couldn't. That I couldn't have short sleeves and it was a long story. So she basically reported me to my supervisor. I walked past and they were talking about it. I told him the same thing and he said I could keep the long sleeves as long as they were at my wrist and I kept my hands and wrists clean. I was so scared he'd ask to see my arms and I'd have to tell him. He didn't.
Shona came and we talked
...
LlamaLlamaDuck's Avatar
Llama Lover/Skittle Minion
Posted in Uncategorized
Views 204 Comments 1 LlamaLlamaDuck is offline
 
User Infomation
Your Avatar

Latest Articles & News
- by Halcyon
- by Rob

Advertisement



All material copyright ©1998-2024, TeenHelp.
Terms | Legal | Privacy | Conduct | Complaints | Mobile

Powered by vBulletin®.
Copyright ©2000-2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.
Search engine optimization by vBSEO.
Theme developed in association with vBStyles.