Bleh. Pain.
Posted February 26th 2016 at 08:45 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
I can't take any more of this pain. Nothing is touching it, I've tried various painkillers of different strengths, heat pads, moving, keeping still, going for walks. Nothing is making any difference. It's getting worse and spreading. At this point in time I have pain in my neck, back, sides, coccyx (weird, I know), and right foot. Only my right foot. Also random headaches and my right leg hurts because walking normally on my right foot is so freaking painful.
I don't know what this is but it cannot be a muscle spasm, otherwise the muscle relaxants would have made some kind of difference. They've done nothing but make me sleepy.
Kate said today I was looking better because I wasn't as tensed up. In reality, the pain is worse than yesterday and I have less movement in my neck, but I'm aware that sitting so tense isn't going to help so I'm making an effort to relax more.
I'm going to try and get a phone appointment with the other doctor next week. I can't take more time off work but I also can't keep going like this. Kate has said if I need to stay home, then do it. Payroll is done for this month so the absences that are usually my priority can wait a few days if they need to. I hate not being at work and it just feels so fake. Like you can't SEE any injury and I feel like I can work as normal, even though in reality I can barely move at the moment. I don't know what to do. I can't not go in on Monday because Jan is off so I need to be there to cover reception. But if I feel anything like the way I do just now, I'm not sure I'll even be able to get out of bed on Monday morning.
I hate this whole thing. I don't get sick, I don't get injured, nothing like this ever happens to me. Why now? Why, at 23 when I should be fit and healthy and happy, am I collapsed in a heap on my bed wanting to cry from the sheer exhaustion this pain is causing?
I can't sleep properly at night because the pain shoots down my sides when I roll over. It's actually less painful to sit up, turn over, and lie back down again. I can't even do my stupid job! I can't do any filing unless it's in the middle two rows of drawers, I won't be able to lift any of the boxes of stationery to their various shelves next time I order, I can't even lift a box of envelopes from a shelf. My nearly six-months-pregnant boss did it and said she was "more equipped" to be lifting things than I am. And the sad thing is, she's right. I'm trying so hard to do everything as normal until this just goes away but it's not possible. It's ridiculous.
Screw this.
I don't know what this is but it cannot be a muscle spasm, otherwise the muscle relaxants would have made some kind of difference. They've done nothing but make me sleepy.
Kate said today I was looking better because I wasn't as tensed up. In reality, the pain is worse than yesterday and I have less movement in my neck, but I'm aware that sitting so tense isn't going to help so I'm making an effort to relax more.
I'm going to try and get a phone appointment with the other doctor next week. I can't take more time off work but I also can't keep going like this. Kate has said if I need to stay home, then do it. Payroll is done for this month so the absences that are usually my priority can wait a few days if they need to. I hate not being at work and it just feels so fake. Like you can't SEE any injury and I feel like I can work as normal, even though in reality I can barely move at the moment. I don't know what to do. I can't not go in on Monday because Jan is off so I need to be there to cover reception. But if I feel anything like the way I do just now, I'm not sure I'll even be able to get out of bed on Monday morning.
I hate this whole thing. I don't get sick, I don't get injured, nothing like this ever happens to me. Why now? Why, at 23 when I should be fit and healthy and happy, am I collapsed in a heap on my bed wanting to cry from the sheer exhaustion this pain is causing?
I can't sleep properly at night because the pain shoots down my sides when I roll over. It's actually less painful to sit up, turn over, and lie back down again. I can't even do my stupid job! I can't do any filing unless it's in the middle two rows of drawers, I won't be able to lift any of the boxes of stationery to their various shelves next time I order, I can't even lift a box of envelopes from a shelf. My nearly six-months-pregnant boss did it and said she was "more equipped" to be lifting things than I am. And the sad thing is, she's right. I'm trying so hard to do everything as normal until this just goes away but it's not possible. It's ridiculous.
Screw this.
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