Can anyone else hear that?

Everything has been so busy! My supervisor is off work this week. She knows how EVERYTHING works and how it all needs done. Thing is, it's not written down anywhere, it's all in her head. She just knows it all.
We don't.
This week hasn't been easy.
We've managed though. I've been able to get little things done that I've been putting off. Emailing some managers about incorrectly filled out forms so I can work out what they're supposed to say, chasing up some references for new employees, checking what documents we have for new people and making a note of who still needs what.
I also made lots and lots of name badges and place cards. The Royal Blind School was officially opened this afternoon by the Duke of Gloucester so I've been helping the Marketing department who organised it all to prepare.
Look! http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-scotlan...medium=twitter
I *think* that's the chief exec's hand in the photo at the bottom, but I could be wrong.

In reference to the title of this blog, all I've been able to hear out of my right ear since Sunday is a kind of echo-y high pitched humming noise. Going by that, the serious pain I've been in on a constant basis, and the discharge from said ear, we suspect I've ruptured my ear drum. So I get to be in near constant pain for up to eight weeks while it heals. I've been planning my days around the best times for me to eat so I can take painkillers every four hours. I EVEN HAD BREAKFAST TODAY.
It's at the point where I'll get to work, eat, take Panadol. Lunchtime, eat, Panadol. Finish work, home, dinner, Panadol. Bedtime, biscuit, Panadol. But it only works for a couple of hours and you can only take painkillers every four hours. So it still hurts most of the day.

I got a text from Naomi the other night. Actually, three texts. She asked if I could keep a secret and said she'd keep bugging me until I replied. So I did and she told me she was ten minutes away. She and her family had bought a new car and had to come down here to pick it up. They were staying with family and then going back home yesterday. There was no chance I'd be able to see her even if I wanted to.
I thought that was what she wanted at first, panicked, and wound up in a crying heap clinging to my pillow pet. I'm nowhere near ready to see her, I can't do that yet. But she didn't have time to meet me anyway so I don't know why she even told me. I thought I was getting over her, and I still think I am. But that doesn't mean I'm ready to see her in person. If that day comes it's going to be extremely difficult and I can't face that yet.
How utterly pathetic.

I was going to try and get my essay done today but I feel really down and can't pinpoint exactly why. I think it's because my ear hurts so much and it's just making me insanely miserable.
I'm seeing a doctor on Saturday. Hopefully they can give me some cocodamol or something that'll last longer. I've been considering staying home from work, but aside from the fact being at home is a little quieter, there's no difference between work and home in terms of how much it hurts. At least at work I have things to keep me busy and distracted.

Decided tonight to just relax for a while, have a drink, and try to not stress over everything and wind up holding the side of my head and crying. Which I'm about three minutes away from right now.
Might have an early night and try to sleep through the pain. I'd try anything at this point.

It hurts so freaking much.