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Posted April 13th 2012 at 09:51 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 10:05 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 10:05 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Today has really sucked. It feels like every time I feel like I'm getting my life back on track, something happens to push me a few steps back again. Don't get me wrong, I know this is important and something that needs to be done. That doesn't make it any easier.
Mum reckons I'm acting weird, my brother's confused because I went off on a rant about how unrealistic happily ever after love stories are. I'm just sat in my room with about 4 times the amount of calories I should have, and a lot of sugary juice and alcohol and energy drinks. I'm not caring whether it knocks me out or keeps me up all night, just as long as I don't have to feel anything, I'll be fine.
I've been thinking for a while now, I'm 8 months free and I wonder what the point is. Why not just have a night where I can let loose and cut and overdose and do whatever the hell I like. And then go back to stopping and being good every night.
Would one night really be that bad? :/
Mum reckons I'm acting weird, my brother's confused because I went off on a rant about how unrealistic happily ever after love stories are. I'm just sat in my room with about 4 times the amount of calories I should have, and a lot of sugary juice and alcohol and energy drinks. I'm not caring whether it knocks me out or keeps me up all night, just as long as I don't have to feel anything, I'll be fine.
I've been thinking for a while now, I'm 8 months free and I wonder what the point is. Why not just have a night where I can let loose and cut and overdose and do whatever the hell I like. And then go back to stopping and being good every night.
Would one night really be that bad? :/
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I think you know the answers to your own questions. Keep fighting, okay? <3Posted April 15th 2012 at 04:53 AM by Storyteller.
