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Even God Can't Change The Past
Posted April 14th 2012 at 09:45 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:03 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:03 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
I'm struggling so bad just now.
It's like someone's died. I can't stop crying at everything. I feel really sick and empty and I can't even explain it.
I can't do this. I can't just accept that that's it. I keep praying I'm going to wake up and it'll all just be a dream.
I can't come to terms with the fact that I won't be going to sleep with and waking up to texts every day. It just feels like it shouldn't be so easy to just give up. It's not easy anyway. I can't explain it.
I just want to drink and cut and take whatever I can find and sleep for a few days and not have to feel.
Not have to think.
Or remember.
Or anything.
I wish my Papa were here. He always knew what to say. All anyone can tell me is that it gets better and shit about more fish in the sea. I don't like fish. I hate that analogy.
I want to give up. Been thinking for weeks about just getting some new blades and giving in. :/ I don't know anything. I'm just done, I guess.
It's like someone's died. I can't stop crying at everything. I feel really sick and empty and I can't even explain it.
I can't do this. I can't just accept that that's it. I keep praying I'm going to wake up and it'll all just be a dream.
I can't come to terms with the fact that I won't be going to sleep with and waking up to texts every day. It just feels like it shouldn't be so easy to just give up. It's not easy anyway. I can't explain it.
I just want to drink and cut and take whatever I can find and sleep for a few days and not have to feel.
Not have to think.
Or remember.
Or anything.
I wish my Papa were here. He always knew what to say. All anyone can tell me is that it gets better and shit about more fish in the sea. I don't like fish. I hate that analogy.
I want to give up. Been thinking for weeks about just getting some new blades and giving in. :/ I don't know anything. I'm just done, I guess.
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I'm so sorry and it may not seem like it now but it DOES get better in time.
Just try and hold on though, you've made it this far and even though we don't talk that much anymore you can always talk to me if you need someone <3Posted April 15th 2012 at 01:24 AM by Gingerbread Latte
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I don't have the words to make all this, whatever it is, better, but I do care, so much. If you ever want to rant, or want some advice, or just a distraction, you know where to find me.
Posted April 15th 2012 at 03:20 AM by Storyteller.
