Even God Can't Change The Past
Posted April 14th 2012 at 10:45 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 10:03 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 10:03 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
I'm struggling so bad just now.
It's like someone's died. I can't stop crying at everything. I feel really sick and empty and I can't even explain it.
I can't do this. I can't just accept that that's it. I keep praying I'm going to wake up and it'll all just be a dream.
I can't come to terms with the fact that I won't be going to sleep with and waking up to texts every day. It just feels like it shouldn't be so easy to just give up. It's not easy anyway. I can't explain it.
I just want to drink and cut and take whatever I can find and sleep for a few days and not have to feel.
Not have to think.
Or remember.
Or anything.
I wish my Papa were here. He always knew what to say. All anyone can tell me is that it gets better and shit about more fish in the sea. I don't like fish. I hate that analogy.
I want to give up. Been thinking for weeks about just getting some new blades and giving in. :/ I don't know anything. I'm just done, I guess.
It's like someone's died. I can't stop crying at everything. I feel really sick and empty and I can't even explain it.
I can't do this. I can't just accept that that's it. I keep praying I'm going to wake up and it'll all just be a dream.
I can't come to terms with the fact that I won't be going to sleep with and waking up to texts every day. It just feels like it shouldn't be so easy to just give up. It's not easy anyway. I can't explain it.
I just want to drink and cut and take whatever I can find and sleep for a few days and not have to feel.
Not have to think.
Or remember.
Or anything.
I wish my Papa were here. He always knew what to say. All anyone can tell me is that it gets better and shit about more fish in the sea. I don't like fish. I hate that analogy.
I want to give up. Been thinking for weeks about just getting some new blades and giving in. :/ I don't know anything. I'm just done, I guess.
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Posted April 15th 2012 at 02:24 AM by Gingerbread Latte -
Posted April 15th 2012 at 04:20 AM by Storyteller.