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Bad night.
Posted November 9th 2011 at 08:58 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:28 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Updated May 21st 2012 at 09:28 PM by LlamaLlamaDuck
Really don't know what I'm doing anymore. I worked so hard on my 8 page booklet for college and took it through for mum and dad to look at to see if they thought anything needed changed, mum just got mad at me asking why I'm trying so hard if I don't even want to be doing the course anyway. This morning she was texting me telling me she didn't want me falling behind.
I don't know what I want to do after this year. I don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I don't see anything planned out. Lately thinking ahead as far as next week is difficult because all I can think about is whether or not I'll have given in by then or not.
I can't seem to please anyone. I don't know why I'm even trying anymore.
Every night the thoughts are the same. Just one cut won't do any harm. One little scratch and then you can feel better. Why not? Who would care? Who would know? It's the least you deserve.
Give up.
Cut.
Slice.
End it.
I don't know what I want to do after this year. I don't know what I want to do for the rest of my life. I don't see anything planned out. Lately thinking ahead as far as next week is difficult because all I can think about is whether or not I'll have given in by then or not.
I can't seem to please anyone. I don't know why I'm even trying anymore.
Every night the thoughts are the same. Just one cut won't do any harm. One little scratch and then you can feel better. Why not? Who would care? Who would know? It's the least you deserve.
Give up.
Cut.
Slice.
End it.
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I really hope that you are okay. I'm here if you need anyone. You can do this kid xPosted November 9th 2011 at 09:19 PM by Palmolive
