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To Write Love On Her Arms
Posted November 12th 2010 at 11:26 AM by LlamaLlamaDuck
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There is a difference between what is said and what is implied.
Where your words kiss my hand, the unspoken stabs my heart.
AND THE TEARS ARE DENIED
These feelings are unjustified
Where your words kiss my hand, the unspoken stabs my heart.
AND THE TEARS ARE DENIED
These feelings are unjustified
Quote:
* No one can save me from myself. If I don’t want it, I won’t have it… Only through my Higher Power and turning my will over.
* Remember the DESPAIR, the moments when you wanted to DIE… Do you really want to go back?!
* When I was in my addiction my dreams were merely dreams, in my recovery my dreams are being realised.
There is hope for something more
…This isn’t all there is.
*There is pain and suffering, and great loss in this world, but we can find strength and hope in the rooms.
* Remember the DESPAIR, the moments when you wanted to DIE… Do you really want to go back?!
* When I was in my addiction my dreams were merely dreams, in my recovery my dreams are being realised.
There is hope for something more
…This isn’t all there is.
*There is pain and suffering, and great loss in this world, but we can find strength and hope in the rooms.
Quote:
i am not perfect. i am not a hollywood story where all the ends are tied up neatly and explained. but i am learning, and growing and allowing myself to be loved and to love like never before. i am learning to live deliberately. to be a light in dark places. to have what breaks god’s heart break mine too.
this isn’t easy. the attacks are so sly, so cunning and baffling, and powerful. but my god is bigger than that. it’s funny. somehow i forget and think i am alone…..but tonight, i came home to read comment after comment of people praying, encouraging, telling me that they are there with me. …an answer to a prayer that i have only recently begun praying… that people would know what i am about…and here is my answer. …
i hung on. i clung to life and hope in the darkest of times when there didn’t seem to be any reason, and it was all so distant…i refused to let go because i knew that god would use my pain to bring healing to others. i only have one life to live and i want to use it. to be a cracked vessel, to be available and willing to do whatever i am called. i want to jump in the muddy trenches with people who want out and help show them the way. i wat to love with the same love that i have been shown. ..to be a shining star in the universe.
i didn’t do this of my own accord, i am not that strong. god has carried me so many times when all i could do was lay there in my bed begging him to help me get through the moment, the urge to desroy everything, he drew near to me. through a friend, a pet, a song….a hug deep inside of my heart.
oooh. i got that keytag and i never wanted to let it out of my palm. it was hard work getting to this point. ….but it happened, and it can happen for anyone who wants it.
this isn’t my story. this is God’s story of redemption, being used to redeem others…..how beautiful is that.
this isn’t easy. the attacks are so sly, so cunning and baffling, and powerful. but my god is bigger than that. it’s funny. somehow i forget and think i am alone…..but tonight, i came home to read comment after comment of people praying, encouraging, telling me that they are there with me. …an answer to a prayer that i have only recently begun praying… that people would know what i am about…and here is my answer. …
i hung on. i clung to life and hope in the darkest of times when there didn’t seem to be any reason, and it was all so distant…i refused to let go because i knew that god would use my pain to bring healing to others. i only have one life to live and i want to use it. to be a cracked vessel, to be available and willing to do whatever i am called. i want to jump in the muddy trenches with people who want out and help show them the way. i wat to love with the same love that i have been shown. ..to be a shining star in the universe.
i didn’t do this of my own accord, i am not that strong. god has carried me so many times when all i could do was lay there in my bed begging him to help me get through the moment, the urge to desroy everything, he drew near to me. through a friend, a pet, a song….a hug deep inside of my heart.
oooh. i got that keytag and i never wanted to let it out of my palm. it was hard work getting to this point. ….but it happened, and it can happen for anyone who wants it.
this isn’t my story. this is God’s story of redemption, being used to redeem others…..how beautiful is that.
Those quotes came from the most inspirational book I have ever had the honour of owning and being able to read whenever it gets hard. It’s called Purpose For The Pain and it was written by Renee Yohe. It’s extracts from her journal as she fought her way through depression, addiction, suicidal thoughts and feelings and self harm. A lot of the book is graphic and triggering and difficult to read, but amongst all that there are moments of light and rays of hope. It’s all worth it for those moments.
So since tomorrow is November 13th, known as “Write Love Day” and since I have more than one person close to me who is struggling, I hoped this might bring a little hope.
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I love you, princess. <3Posted November 12th 2010 at 12:05 PM by Bibliophile
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Thank you for sharing this.Posted November 12th 2010 at 12:23 PM by luvflamingos
