Don't know what to think anymore
Posted October 3rd 2010 at 08:24 PM by Leo
The title kinda says it all. This weekend has been amazing and at the same time just as confusing. I know in my head that I dont need to fear that which is scaring the shit out of me. But in my heart I just can't stop. It's stupid I know, but I cant stop overthinking things,(ironic huh?)
First of all I drove 9 hours to meet my girlfriend.
It was kinda what I was expecting, but there were a few differences lmao. She was a lot less shy then I expected.
Idk maybe i just feel like shit because im leaving. I just cant stop all these thoughts playing out in my head. ARGG is so irritating. Things were so much easier when I didn't have feelings. Nothing mattered, nothing confused me. I don't want to be like that again. But god was it easier. *sighs*
I honestly dont know what to do or think. *laughs* at least I still know what I want.
I just don't know if what I want is best for her. Especially after this weekend. I just don't know anymore. And thats killing me.
It hurts to think that maybe the girl I love would be better off with someone else. *shrugs* Guess all I can do for now is just wait.
First of all I drove 9 hours to meet my girlfriend.
It was kinda what I was expecting, but there were a few differences lmao. She was a lot less shy then I expected.
Idk maybe i just feel like shit because im leaving. I just cant stop all these thoughts playing out in my head. ARGG is so irritating. Things were so much easier when I didn't have feelings. Nothing mattered, nothing confused me. I don't want to be like that again. But god was it easier. *sighs*
I honestly dont know what to do or think. *laughs* at least I still know what I want.
I just don't know if what I want is best for her. Especially after this weekend. I just don't know anymore. And thats killing me.
It hurts to think that maybe the girl I love would be better off with someone else. *shrugs* Guess all I can do for now is just wait.
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Posted December 19th 2010 at 09:01 PM by RingedByGrey