thought that this would never happen, but it did. i finally broke down last night. January 1st, im leaving. I dont know where. But im leaving. Anywhere is better than here.

"Tonight we fight,
For the lost all the cold,
Tonight we fight,
for the ones who can-not,
tonight win for the ones you gave shit,
i guess you knew, we were coming for you,
You strike us down, and we get right back up! Pat the dust off ourselves and we're comin for more!!!"

It's been a tough couple of years. Gone through a lot of bad times,
good times,
but it's alright.
I have a feeling that this year might be my last in the house with my "family."
Almost got kicked out again yesterday. I'm currently looking for somewhere to live. My parents are probably getting divorced before i turn 18. If they do, i will leave, if not ill wait. But i am leaving. Possibly to Florida I have a great friend there and i have some family there. So,...

Today is a good day. i feel clear headed, awake, and alive. Its been awhile since ive had a day like this. Im not going to let anything get in the way anymore. No more letting people push me around. Im atheist, bi-sexual and i dont give a shit anymore what you think. If you dont like me you can fuck off.

"I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, that the dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever ever had. Its a very very mad world"

I know im not completely alone anymore. but i still feel empty inside. without you, i feel that im nothing. where have you gone?Its been almost a year and I'm nearly dead inside. i know you'll never read this cause its shit, but i don't care. i miss you.

It flew by extremely fast. im not sure what ive gotten myself into with this "spice" shit. I wasted $40 on it. managed to float by all week. Some things i remember? falling down a lot, yelling at my boss, and sneaking off to smoke. I need to find some help i think. Today i feel numb.

I tried spice for the first time about a week ago now. I havent been sober since. Every time a start to get clear headed i want more. I know its not the drug thats addictive i just have an addictive nature... what do i do?

what do you do when your own mother tells you to give up? when she tells you that she has no faith in you? do i completely shutdown? cause that is all i can do right now.

i might be leaving for a while. goodbye