C

On my last blog entry I mentioned that I had to push away my ex best friend who was like a sister to me because she was close to finding out a secret of mine (we'll just call her C) and how I had been broken up about it for a few months because of how close we had been. I'm naturally a loyal friend and it's very hard for me to let go of people that I'm close to in my life. C stopped talking to me sometime in late September and hadn't spoken to me for about 4-5 months, at least until today. She refused to even acknowledge my presence but lately a lot of her "true friends" that she had thrown in my face before have been talking major sh*t about her and just being horrible backstabbers. I tried to warn her via email telling her that some people weren't being very good friends and that I didn't want drama, but that she needs to be careful about who she trusts. She responded by confronting me today and talking to me for the first time in months by chewing me out saying I can't just email her that and not expect drama. She said I was still naive and this is why I didn't have any real friends. The thing is that I know her well enough to know that she's putting up a brave front because talking out her feelings isn't something she's good at. The good thing is that I might have a chance of getting one of my closest friends back. The problem is that I just recently accepted the fact that she's gone. If I get my hopes again I don't know how I'll be able to handle it. Even just this brief conversation today ruined my perfectly good day. I hope things work out. I can't take this much longer.

Attached Images

C&me.jpg (42.8 KB, 5 views)