Everything is changing.

Okay, so I'm green again. Feels good to finally be back, I hate that I had to be gone for so long. I feel like I've really ignored my friends and I apologize, but for quite some time there I just couldn't get on TH hardly at all, and when I did I had no time. It really sucked.

But my life is changing. A lot. I mean a LOT. Jon is progressively working harder and harder to find a job. I can't even remember all the places he's put in applications. He's working so incredibly hard because he knows life is really hard for me right now, and if he can land a job, it means I can move in with him. He says he wants to give me a better life, and he wants me to be happier. He knows as long as I'm in this house, I'm not really happy. So with all the applying he's been doing, chances are I'll be moving in with him very soon. I really don't know for sure if I'm completely ready to leave home, but I know I can't take the abuse much longer.

My plan is to apply for a disability check, so I can at least pay for my own meds. I don't like the idea of Jon spending his hard earned money to pay for my problems. With the seizures, I'm unable to drive. Out here, there's no public transport, so I can't really get a job until I can drive. Which is a long way down the road. Since I'm unable to work and my disability puts me in danger in even some of the simplest situations, I've looked into how the disability for seizures works and it looks like I have a good shot at getting a disability check. That will help a lot and make me feel better about moving in with him. The only real problem is...well...telling my parents. They're gonna want to kill Jon, and they'll scream at me to no end. I'm not looking forward to it.