i just feel like i am useless

Originally Posted by kayless09;943924:bleh::(:'(*)

Well i guess i have been bullied for a long time it was about year two when it all started, They all use to call me names and i would just ignore it but it just got worse over the years. In year 7 i was getting bullied by people because of the girls i was hanging out with and i even got assulted and when that happened i moved schools and i was so happy i had lots of friends and the bulling had stoped for the rest of year 7 and year 8 these were the best year and a half of my life i was hardly getting bullied at all, but then this year in year 9 it has started again i was in class with one of my closest friends discussing her life problems and how it was affecting her and a girl overheard this conversation and thought i was making fun of her when i wasnt she is my best friend and has been scent year 4, at lunch she approached me asking me all this questions, i was so scared because i knew what was going to happen, i tryed to walk away and she grabbed my hair from the back of the head and hit me three or four times, i was in so much shock i didnt even go and report it, i just went to find my best friend and get help from her by that time i was bleeding from the mouth and my support teacher made me go to the office and report it so i did i wrote a statement and went back to class. it all settled down for about one month and a half intill one day i came home early from double sport and was texting my best friend eliza and then i got these horriable messages saying: GO DIE IN A HOLE I HATE YOU and F**k off and at the time i faught these messages were coming from her so of course i was blaming it on her because it came from her phone i was crying for nearly 2 hours thinking too my self what have i done to deserve this (eliza is my best friend and i tell her everything) and i was asking her all this questions and then too find out she didnt even send the messages that it was gemma (someone who i faught was my friend) i was so angry and upset at the same time that i didnt know what to do so i left it but then my science teacher seen them and made me report it to the depty principal and so i did and because it came from eliza's phone it got blamed on eliza and she is angry at me when really i should be the one that is angry at them because she shouldnt of gave her phone to her and let her send those messages it has taken nearly a month for eliza too see i am really sorry and you know what i forgave them straight away and let them off and they just couldnt see that but now i can really only trust three people at school and they are whitney,shauna and claudia but most of the time i still feel like they are against me too like they don't care and like they aren't my friends and i just feel so useless to everybody and feel like there is no use for me too be around but claudia (billierose88) has shown me that it doesnt matter if you have just one friend or if you have a million friends as long as that one you call a friend you know you can trust and i would like to thankyou claudie even though it feels like i have lost you guys as well and feel alone i know you are always right and i am sorry to all those people that i have hurt and i don't know of because i don't realize and i just want all the bulling to stop why is this happening to me?? why are they bulling me?? i have none nothing wrong to anyone i am one of the nicest people and wouldnt harm a thing so can someone tell me please why me?? why?? it is not fair