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This Is Just A Little Taste Of The Wacky, Weird And Crazy Thoughts That Make Their Way Through My Mind Everyday....
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Posted January 1st 2013 at 10:57 AM by Jannel
alright, well lately i've been feeling more worthless than usual and it's really starting to take it's toll.
my aunty has been more and dissapointed in me because this isn't my last year of highschool and although it should be, it isn't. its just been so hard this year
my grandpa passed away over the summer and that really threw my whole family through a loop, especially my aunty.
my grandpa was the chief of our band, he managed the whole entire reservation and worked so hard to get our voices heard and our rights to be respected it's amazing that we've come so far.
my aunty had to manage the reservation for a month after he passed away and that was very stressful, everyone was fighting for power and my grandpas valuable stuff and just had no respect whatsoever and it was just sickening.
she has been worrying me for awhile, i wish we could just talk about stuff because over christmas she was really depressed and was missing grandpa, grandma, my mom, my aunty hank and aunty reberta. and i really felt bad and useless because there was nothing i could do.
i'm getting close to being 19 and on my own, and its both scary but exciting at the same time. and i can't wait!
its been hard to find reasons to keep trying and to not give up, and im getting really stressed out by having to fight myself to do the simplest things, it's tiring. and honestly i was hoping that the whole 2012 thing would happen so i could just give up already, im tired of this life, i just want out.
my aunty has been more and dissapointed in me because this isn't my last year of highschool and although it should be, it isn't. its just been so hard this year
my grandpa passed away over the summer and that really threw my whole family through a loop, especially my aunty.
my grandpa was the chief of our band, he managed the whole entire reservation and worked so hard to get our voices heard and our rights to be respected it's amazing that we've come so far.
my aunty had to manage the reservation for a month after he passed away and that was very stressful, everyone was fighting for power and my grandpas valuable stuff and just had no respect whatsoever and it was just sickening.
she has been worrying me for awhile, i wish we could just talk about stuff because over christmas she was really depressed and was missing grandpa, grandma, my mom, my aunty hank and aunty reberta. and i really felt bad and useless because there was nothing i could do.
i'm getting close to being 19 and on my own, and its both scary but exciting at the same time. and i can't wait!
its been hard to find reasons to keep trying and to not give up, and im getting really stressed out by having to fight myself to do the simplest things, it's tiring. and honestly i was hoping that the whole 2012 thing would happen so i could just give up already, im tired of this life, i just want out.
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