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This Is Just A Little Taste Of The Wacky, Weird And Crazy Thoughts That Make Their Way Through My Mind Everyday....
Fathers Day. =|
Posted June 17th 2010 at 11:46 PM by Jannel
Umm.. Yeah Fathers Day is this sunday i think?
And i could care less, he could die for all i care.
And last night it finally hit me.
I finally know why i could never accept my dad's "love" i wouldn't hug him back, didn't like him touching me and just wanted him to leave me alone. And why i could not remember a thing from back then.
I think he like.. ya know.. molested me and stuff while i was younger.
Like he did the same thing to 10 other people, what's stopping/ stopped him from doing the same thing to me? :/
Gah.. i hope i'm wrong.. i hope it was all just a stupid dream. :/
I felt like killing myself again last night, like seriously.. it scared me, i promised people i wouldn't, but i would not mind if someone were to say.. kill me.
They'd be doing me a favor actually.
Gah.. i just want to see my mom again. She'd know what to do. :/
And i could care less, he could die for all i care.
And last night it finally hit me.
I finally know why i could never accept my dad's "love" i wouldn't hug him back, didn't like him touching me and just wanted him to leave me alone. And why i could not remember a thing from back then.
I think he like.. ya know.. molested me and stuff while i was younger.
Like he did the same thing to 10 other people, what's stopping/ stopped him from doing the same thing to me? :/
Gah.. i hope i'm wrong.. i hope it was all just a stupid dream. :/
I felt like killing myself again last night, like seriously.. it scared me, i promised people i wouldn't, but i would not mind if someone were to say.. kill me.
They'd be doing me a favor actually.
Gah.. i just want to see my mom again. She'd know what to do. :/
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I'm so sorry you think this happened
and even though your father has done it in the past, I hope he'd never do it to his own daughter And I have a very crappy father too so your DEFIANTLY not alone there though its a little different cuz I remember almost everything he's done (and i get crippling flashbacks for the rest)... please I know we barely know each other, and I absolutely am horrid at giving advice, but you can PM or VM or e-mail me or something if you need to vent ok?
Hope that it gets better
--SebianPosted July 4th 2010 at 08:51 AM by shaytaan
Updated July 5th 2010 at 08:38 PM by shaytaan
