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Wondering Why Im here?
Posted June 6th 2010 at 06:43 AM by Jannel
Well, if you are..
It's a long story but i'll keep it as short as possible.
My mom passed on not too long ago, still not over that. But when she left us, my family fell apart, she was our glue she kept everything under control and together.
Everything is just wrong, my dad threw himself into drinking, so did my older brother, so it was just me and my little brother there for a while.
it got even more heavy when my dad met her, she broke what was left of our family.
and he let her.. they could care less.. and as a result of them drinking everyday all day we meaning me and my little brother, got taken from our home and are staying with my aunty atm thank "god".
And now they're all fighting over my old home because apparently people need it because they have kids, but my aunty already has it. serisouly.. i fucking dont want my home that i grew up in, my moms house to go to some family that will NOT look after it. its stupid! Dx
And.. well my dad did some things to some people that i care about that he shouldn't have.. and now hes going to jail. so i've lost both parents. and well im not sure if he did it to me when i was younger.. i dont remember anything from back then. i dont want to find out that my dad isnt the person i thought he was.
And well i went for an ultra-sound a week or two ago.. and well it turns out that im ya know pregnant. >.>
and before you're like oh god, another pregnant teenager who couldnt keep her pants on
Im not at all like that, i would never Willingly have sex.
And yeah. i could go on and on.. but no ones probably reading anyway. xP
Anyways.. later.
It's a long story but i'll keep it as short as possible.
My mom passed on not too long ago, still not over that. But when she left us, my family fell apart, she was our glue she kept everything under control and together.
Everything is just wrong, my dad threw himself into drinking, so did my older brother, so it was just me and my little brother there for a while.
it got even more heavy when my dad met her, she broke what was left of our family.
and he let her.. they could care less.. and as a result of them drinking everyday all day we meaning me and my little brother, got taken from our home and are staying with my aunty atm thank "god".
And now they're all fighting over my old home because apparently people need it because they have kids, but my aunty already has it. serisouly.. i fucking dont want my home that i grew up in, my moms house to go to some family that will NOT look after it. its stupid! Dx
And.. well my dad did some things to some people that i care about that he shouldn't have.. and now hes going to jail. so i've lost both parents. and well im not sure if he did it to me when i was younger.. i dont remember anything from back then. i dont want to find out that my dad isnt the person i thought he was.
And well i went for an ultra-sound a week or two ago.. and well it turns out that im ya know pregnant. >.>
and before you're like oh god, another pregnant teenager who couldnt keep her pants on
Im not at all like that, i would never Willingly have sex.
And yeah. i could go on and on.. but no ones probably reading anyway. xP
Anyways.. later.
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Hey Jannel,
I'm Katrina. (: Welcome to the boards. I've been here a goooood minute, but I'm a pretty big fan of new people AND introduction posts or blogs! I think I originally came for some form of anxiety/public speaking phobia, but since then (back in 2007), I've had to give numerous speeches and presentations, and my school forced me to take a communication arts class, which I'm very thankful for. I say this not to bore you, but just to remind you that there's definitely hope.
I'm truly sorry to hear about your mom. She sounds like a very strongwilled woman with a good heart, and I hate that the bond your family had was weakened when your mom passed away, but I can understand that. Just know that regardless of the things you feel that are changed, you'll always have fond memories of your mom, and nothing can take those away from you.
Take a deep breath, Channel. You definitely sound like you have a lot on your plate right now, but you also sound like a very mature person, and I feel like you have a steady head on your shoulders. (:
I don't like what has happened to you - it sounds very stressful, but I want you to know that if you'd ever like to talk about something, or if you ever want a third party opinion on a situation, please let me know! (:
In the meantime, hang in there. I'm not sure what decision you're going to make about the baby, but know that if you keep the baby, it's never too early to start planning that out. Visit Planned Parenthood or something of the sort and see what your options are! You don't want to be taken by surprise when the baby is actually due. PS: For the record, when I read your blog, I totally wasn't like "Oh god, another pregnant teenager who couldn't keep her pants on." Sometimes, things out of our control happen, and other times, we make mistakes. Regardless of the cause, I suppose we have to try to deal with it the best that we can.
Take good care of yourself.Posted June 6th 2010 at 12:14 PM by Katrina
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I know its a little to late for this Jannel,
But I very much agree with Katrina, that you seem very mature beyond your years and I'm always hear for you (I know that it isn't much, but it can still help) and I DEFINATLY didn't think the whole pregnant teenager thing ok?? Sometimes things happen that shouldn't... I understand that... And you should definately visit a parenthood or pregnancy site (I can't really recommend TH's pregnancy info seeing as I've never really looked at it) and i hope that its a healthy baby ok? ^__^
Good Luck
AND HAPPY FOURTH
--SebianPosted July 4th 2010 at 09:05 AM by shaytaan
