Why do I feel this way? I wake up everyday disappointed...Because I wake up. I hate feeling this way. But everyday my mind tells me to kill myself...I hate my on being. I hate everything abut me. I feel like I am lost inside of my mind. I am consumed in my thoughts all the time. I try not to show how I am feeling, but lately it has been getting harder and harder. I hate it. I just think about what death feels like, all the time. And I have been having more and more hallucinations...Which is not...

That god does not exist, I cannot deny
That my whole being cries out for a god, I cannot forget.
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The kingdom of god
is inside you and all around you.
Not in a mansion of wood and stone
Split a piece of wood and god is there
Lift a stone and you will find god.
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Tear down the cross,
Splinters and shards.
Remembered this Trojan horse
Rode to the land we enter....

So....When I was 4 my great-grandpa died and my soul died along with him. I lived with him and my great-grandma at the time and he was the only person in my house that took care of me. When I was 5 my great-grandma's ex boyfriend started to molest me. My father walked in on him touching me and he didn't do anything. It kept going on until I was 10. I didn't tell anyone until I was 11. I told my mother and she tried to press charges, but there was nothing she could do. When I was 12 I was started...

RAW stands for: Rough, Awesome, Wo-ow

Interviewer: "So we need to talk about all the cocaine you do."
Jake Pitts: "All the coke we do? Totally..."
Ashley Purdy: "Yeah man. We do tons of coke."
Jinxx: "Yeah we do!"
Ashley Purdy: "Yeah, and when we do, I just go around saying 'Ding Dang, Who's Your Boss?'"

I smoke a million swisher blunts and I aint ever coming down.

I'm in the W but...

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Do you even miss us? Your bottles and mistress? I need to know, I need to know! Why are you walking away?
~A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son~
There is a Hell, believe me I've seen it. There is a Heaven, let's keep it a secret.
~Crucify Me~
I'm scared to get close. I hate being alone. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get, the lower I'll sink. I cant drown my demons they know how to swim
~Can...