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I'm Pathetic.
Posted November 22nd 2015 at 04:28 PM by iambatman
I am so pathetic. I cut last night...I hate it. I tell others to stay strong then I cant even keep promises. I promised people who saved my life I wouldn't cut. Now they are going to be upset when I see them again. Which will be next summer. I promised myself. I cant keep a simple promise. I need someone to save me from myself. Separate me from my own two hands, I've killed so many times, But I can't save the world from the creatures that don't die. I forgot, I cant be saved. I am already past the point saving. No one can help me now. I hate myself. I hate these things I do to myself. I hate feeling like I am a burden to everyone on here. I hate everything I am. I hate the fact that I am the problem child. I hate every single word that comes out of my mouth. I hate every single regret I have. I hate every single mistake I have made. I hate everything. I hate my face, my voice, my personality, my style, my everything. The only thing keeping me alive right now is the fact I am going to Warped Tour next summer. And I get to be My Digital Escape's special guest. And I will be able to tell all of my heroes I broke my promise. I know they will be upset. They will probably tell me to promise not to cut. But the fact is I cant keep that promise. Every thought is a war. Every breath is a battle. And I am not winning anymore....
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You are still here fighting which shows you are winning. I know it's a hard one, but you can get through it. You aren't alone and you are worth a lot more than you think you are. Look after yourself okay? We all have slip ups but its about what we do after it. You can beat it <3Posted November 22nd 2015 at 04:41 PM by Palmolive
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Hey, you aren't losing this battle. Just because you cut yourself, doesn't been your going to lose the war. My mom asked me to promise her not to cut myself I said yes. I didn't keep that promise, which makes me feel horrible. But it's not something you can promise. It's a coping mechanism, if something bad happens that you have to cope with it. We just have a different way of coping with stuff then other people. Which is ok! We will turn out stronger than everyone else. We will get through this, we have eachother so nothing and no one will stop us from fighting! You got this! We got this! Just need to keep going, we all have slip ups. Then we come out stronger! This is a war that we will win
Posted November 22nd 2015 at 08:25 PM by Catlady
