I keep relapsing. I started smoking again

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My mom woke me up in the middle of the night because I was talking in my sleep. Seriously? I can't help it. I only talk in my sleep when I am extremely stressed out. She said I was calling her a bitch...Okay? She is. Honestly I am just waiting to move out of here...I have to write an essay before I can go to a school my grandma works at...I'm fine with writing...I just don't get why I have to write a fucking essay for why I think that school will be beneficial....I really want to get sassy and just...

I honestly don't know what to write about....I am upset. I am angry. I am depressed. I am excited...I am a mess...My mom woke me up from my nap, which I desperately needed because I haven't slept in 2 weeks, all because she needed the dishes done. I don't understand why she couldn't do them herself. It's not like she is sick or paralyzed. She is perfectly capable of doing some chores around the house. She told me she has to go get my brother from Akron before the 22nd...She told me I am definitely...

So I have been up since 2:34 am. I went to my grandmas for Thanksgiving dinner. I had fun. Checked my Instagram, approved people that requested to follow me*, and I ate. I asked my mom if I could spend the night. She said no. :/ It upset me...But I got over it with some messages from my best friend. I also posted some rather "rude" videos on instagram...I tagged Callum Klien in them...I got a few laughs out of them though. I also face timed with one of my exes...It was kinda awkward. I...

So a few weeks ago I sent a letter to Andy Biersack's parents, the band, and him. I also sent him a t-shirt. I just got a letter from HIM and his mom. I am so happy!! I wasn't expecting them to get back to me but they did! His parents live literally 15 minutes away from me. This is the letter:
Dear Riley,
Thank you for your letter and also the t-shirt you sent! It was very generous of you. Your support truly means the world to us and we are so glad Andy's music has helped you.
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Don't you just love it when you're at a concert and one person in the crowd is talking shit about the band/singer you are there to see. Because I do. I was at a BVB show and the stupid ass thought it was cool to say shit about them. Andy heard him and called him out. He told him to come up on the stage and play the guitars if he was going to talk shit. The dude chickened out. But not before he told Andy to go fuck himself and threw the mic at Andy's head. After that Andy said he already has someone...

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I fucking love this story!! It's kinda funny...Here is an excerpt:
“You’re a good boy Jarvis! Such a good boy,” As I’m saying this, I nuzzle my nose with his and I hear a click. If they are fridging taking a picture of me with my cat having a moment, I will seriously rip off their balls and staple them to their foreheads. So, since I’m a weird fart face, I stand up and yell “ZEUS, I LOVE YOU! GIVE...

Omfg....I love The Ready Set...I've listened to their music before but I didn't know it was them.....Now I am in LOVE!!!

You say you love me but you turn your back on me.
You say you care about me but you never show it.
You say you'll be there till the end but you aren't here now.
You say I'll survive this but clearly I'm not.
You yell at me and tell me to smile but it's hard to smile when I feel terrible.
I just want you to love me for who I am and not the fake me.
I just want to not have you anymore and find someone else.
Luckily I think I found someone who cares about...