It's still morning by approximately thirteen minutes, and will therefore probably be afternoon by the time I finish writing this.

I texted my little brother to wish him a happy birthday, and later on today I'll have to post on my cousin Alex's facebook page to do the same thing. Welcome to September, in my family, the next five weeks are birthday season. Oh great.

I'm wearing pyjama pants and daytime t-shirts lol. (My little brother just replied and said Ta, that was...

I went to bed to sleep around about 11pm, and dropped off relatively quickly. Barely 3 hours later, I wake up because my left shoulder joint is in an excruciating amount of pain. It won't click, no movement to different position helped. Some moves made the pain worse, but definitely none improved them. I couldn't breathe properly, the pain was so bad that I was panicking and hyperventilating. I got myself to sit up so I could get control of my breathing, which is just as well because I felt like...

Just because that requires concentration andd concentration requires alertness and attentiveness and all of those involve not smoking marijuana. So I figured I'd write a blog entry instead, killing time between the early afternoon sesh and the late afternoon sesh.

I was going to play RuneScape and then I remembered that at the moment I'm running back and forth charging fire orbs, which involves running through a dangerous cave with poisonous spiders and if I'm not concentrating I...

So Leisa came over today. It wasn't too bad, she didn't go on about community work, which is a bonus. She just wanted to go over this thing with me which was basically describe your entire life and all related goals - there was stuff about physical health, mental health, living situation, blah di blah di blah. At some point I mentioned the repetitiveness of the questions, and Leisa basically said, you have to remember that these are designed to be done with everyone. Then she goes on and says, "You're...

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It strikes me as rather ominous that my probation officer stated, much more than once (in fact it felt like every second or third sentence), that she is worried about me.

Noooooot good. They have the contact details for ICT, and if they're worried, it's quite simple for them to place a phone call and say so. My probation officer (the one for the supervision sentence) is quite a nice lady, but the worry in her eyes is disconcerting. I don't like getting that look from people, it makes...

What a revelation, right? Not. My family and so forth were constantly blaming my on-going "poorness" and inability to pay bills on my poor budgeting skills. The truth is, you can only get your money to stretch so far - you can't create it out of nothing if you need it to make that one extra bill. You just end up in debt.

Now I'm getting more money. About double what I was getting before. Before, after my rent had been redirected, I got $86 a week. Now, after my rent's been...

Set my alarm for sunrise, intending to get up and go for a run. You know what they say about the road to hell being paved with good intentions though . . . lol. Eventually dragged my ass out of bed at, get this, half past one in the afternoon. I thought it was still like eleven in the morning. So much for that. So yeah, I didn't go for a run. I'm a little disappointed in myself, but not too much, because what I really feel like doing today (aside from eating and smoking) is playing RuneScape....

I mean seriously. My cat does it, Sam's cat does it. You'll just be sitting somewhere in a quiet house, and suddenly hear the sound of a cat lapping water . . . coming to your ears via soundwaves being transmitted from the bathroom. Now, I know from various T.V. shows that toilet water isn't that dirty (unless you've recently pissed in it and not flushed), and that cats are sensible and don't drink things that will make them sick. Although my cat's a bit of an idiot, and he still eats Cheeky's meat...

(*in time to the music in my head

So I went to court this morning. I turned up late but who gives a shit? As long as you turn up, they won't put out a warrant for you.

The outcome is this: my case has been adjourned for three weeks so I can get my hands on three things - one, my discharge summary from Middlemore ED following the night in shortstay on the 16th and release the following morning of the 17th, two, the paper putting me under a section 11 on the 17th, and...