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I guess I should feel bad.

Posted June 28th 2012 at 03:07 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

I guess I should feel bad for skipping community work today. I don't. I feel bad in general, but not specifically about that. I'll probably get a warning. If they want, they can take me to court on breach and I can be fined or jailed. Know what? Right now, that doesn't bother me. I just needed to get some new clothes, and some pads. Periods ftl. So I did. Now I have trackpants with a ridiculous amount of Xs before the L, so they should both fit, and be comfortable. As well as a new white shirt,...
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Brain Overload.

Posted June 27th 2012 at 10:30 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

I feel like I'm suffering from brain overload. I'm not even doing that much.

Mondays, I coach. Tuesdays are now a free day. Wednesdays, I coach. Thursdays, I have community work and supervision appointments. Fridays, I have mental health appointments, and I coach. Weekends, I now have competitions, as competition season is, as of Saturday, in full swing. This weekend I will be coaching on Saturday and judging on Sunday.

I most likely will not find the time or the money...
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So anyways.

Posted June 26th 2012 at 11:49 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

Took my cat to the vet today. He has an injured toe from attempting to climb a rose bush a couple of weeks ago, and it doesn't seem to be healing properly, so took him to get it looked at. The vet trimmed his claw, cleansed the wound - to the point of washing the scab off - and felt all around it, she said she couldn't feel anything in the wound, but it does feel quite warm, so he's been given a course of antibiotics. Half of a tablet each morning and evening for the next 5 days. Luckily he's a...
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DO. NOT. WANT.

Posted June 25th 2012 at 12:37 PM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

[funny from facebook: I have mood poisoning. Must be some of the bullshit I swallowed.]

I love how being in a low phase gives you days of absolutely loathing yourself, and other other days where you simply don't have the motivation to move.

Also, my laptop is making noises, and I can't figure out why, it's purely when I type, either I'm hallucinating (unlikely) or there is a fuck-up circuit between my keyboard and my speaker.

But anyway, back on topic....
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Stop the thoughts.

Posted June 24th 2012 at 12:35 PM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

I think about suicide. Then I think about how I have responsibilities, and how it's competition season, and how I've seen proof again and again that suicide is contagious.

Then I think about suicide.
Then I think about how I don't want to give my sister the satisfaction. Then I think about how much I hate myself. Then I think about suicide.

I'm fat. So fat, that my BMI apparently is "morbidly obese". I don't look like I'm dying of being overweight,...
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Absolutely shattered.

Posted June 23rd 2012 at 11:22 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

So I wasn't feeling great about the idea of team building at Rocket Ropes today, but I went anyway, because at the end of the day, I'm part of the team and need to participate.

The flying fox was AWESOME.

And then I tried to do the highest rope course (without realising that it's probably also the hardest), and discovered very quickly that I didn't have the upper body strength to do it. The result? I fell. And naturally, being lacking in upper body strength, I couldn't...
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My everything aches.

Posted June 22nd 2012 at 11:44 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

My shoulders ache from community work. My arms ache from catching kids during trust games. My upper back hurts from community work. My lower back aches from having poor posture so much. My legs ache because they're all tight from standing all day on Thursday. It's ok, though.

I nearly ran out of gym tonight. In all seriousness, I don't think anybody realised what was going on. All the kids were excited and noisy, and I was trying to run conditioning and they kept having conversations,...
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Priorities.

Posted June 21st 2012 at 12:19 PM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

I want to post in my blog.
I want to watch all my T.V. shows.

I really want to go the fuck to bed.

Normally I stay up late Thursdays (like until past 2am) and catch up on all my T.V. shows. But it turns out that I did physical work most of the day today, which I haven't done for a while, and I'm fucking exhausted.

Also I had to get up at 7am which was another rude shock to the system.

I DON'T WANT TO GO COLD CALLING ON TUESDAY. I...
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Today.

Posted June 19th 2012 at 10:59 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

I'm not as low as I was yesterday. And I'm definitely not high. And I think I'm lower than "normal". So I guess - low. Just not as severely today. Which leads me to believe that the severity yesterday was reactive. Good to know.

I ate a whole pizza last night. I should feel bad about that, and I think under regular circumstances, I would . . . but I don't. I just . . . don't, which is kind of confusing. I'll probably feel totally shit when I weigh myself, but currently,...
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This is how it goes down.

Posted June 18th 2012 at 08:36 AM by i_like_black (Being good at being stupid doesn't count.)

Charge: Unlawfully takes motor vehicle
Plea: guilty (changed it, couldn't be bothered fighting my way through the court process)
Sentence: 80 hours community work, 12 months supervision with a court order to do personal skills counselling.

Well fuck that.
If they make me see somebody different through probation, I'm just not going to go. I'm already involved in mental health services, I shouldn't have to see extra services that are basically the same thing. ...
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