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Posted March 9th 2013 at 03:59 AM by i_like_black
About ten minutes ago somebody knocked on my door. I wasn't actually aware they were knocking on my door, per se, because people frequently knock on my neighbour's window (it's literally right next to mine) and it often sounds like people are knocking on my door when they are in fact, not. Also I had my headphones on, as I've been watching stuff on my laptop.
Anyway I saw somebody walking back down the driveway, and as it was a young female somebody, I'm going to assume it was somebody intending to pick up the census forms.
Well, not a single form got filled out. I didn't fill out mine, my flatmate hasn't fill out hers, and neither of us has done the dwelling form. I just . . . can't. I've got a block about it, I cannot fill out that form, it's too much. I have a feeling neither of my neighbours has filled out their forms either, so at least I'm not alone, and I know Sam had no plans to fill hers out - same reasoning as mine.
Someone parked their car outside number 1 at 3:00am with ridiculously loud music. I'd just fallen asleep and it woke me up. I stuck my head out the window and asked them to turn it down and I got ignored, so I rang noise control (during which I nearly fell over, I was shaking so bad and felt nauseous, by the gods I hate telephones), and they said it would take up to an hour for a noise control officer to get there. So I waited, and at 4:00am it was still going so I rang again - they said the call had been logged at 3:10am and to give it another 15 minutes. I just gave up. I don't think noise control ever actually showed, and the loud music car left at about 5:30am. So I fell asleep again.
Then BAM, exactly 7:00am, one of my neighbours starts yelling and screaming and crying and smashing things, sounding completely out of control. Wakes me up, AGAIN, and I'm thinking fuck's sake, sounds like he needs to be in hospital - he was basically having a complete emotional blow-out. That lasted for about an hour and a half. I eventually fell asleep around 10:00am and got up just after midday.
I'm really pissed off at those neighbours, because I'd actually fallen asleep not long after midnight, and without their visitors and so forth, I may well have got a full night's sleep. Not so. So I'm still exhausted, and everybody's still going to say it's because I'm in a mixed state and that I need to take the medication as PRN, but what they don't see is that I'm actually trying really hard to sleep, I feel totally exhausted. I'm also really irritable. I swear if I owned a decent weapon I would have smashed the crap out of both their car AND its stereo, because it's not the first time they've had a random loud party at three in the morning so I doubt it will be the last. Maybe I need to buy an axe or something.
I ate today. Nice'n'Spicy chicken nibbles. Tasted great. Felt awful. Like, absolutely horrible. I've had stomach cramps and so forth ever since. I cooked the chicken properly, it just happens to be that I'm not overly hungry so my body is not reacting well to food. It's unpleasant. Everything is unpleasant.
The weather is too damn hot. We're nearly ten days into March, and today so far we've reached a high of 27C. Most of the North Island is in a drought state. We've had less than a third of our normal rain fall in the last two months, and now March is looking like being long, hot and dry as well. I hate it. It's Auckland, raining 1 - 3 times every single week in summer is normal for me. The dryness makes me feel awful. I like rain, it's a huge part of who I am and where I've grown up. We're going to be hit hard. Milk prices will rise higher than they already are, and in NZ, when the price of milk goes up, so does the price of everything else.
I just hate it. I feel so awful and so irritable. And just yucky. And yet apparently I'm in a mostly hypomanic state. What the actual fuck. I know some people get irritable instead of euphoric but I also have no motivation, what's going on here? Just because I was laughing and fidgeting?
I am so confused and so unhappy.
Anyway I saw somebody walking back down the driveway, and as it was a young female somebody, I'm going to assume it was somebody intending to pick up the census forms.
Well, not a single form got filled out. I didn't fill out mine, my flatmate hasn't fill out hers, and neither of us has done the dwelling form. I just . . . can't. I've got a block about it, I cannot fill out that form, it's too much. I have a feeling neither of my neighbours has filled out their forms either, so at least I'm not alone, and I know Sam had no plans to fill hers out - same reasoning as mine.
Someone parked their car outside number 1 at 3:00am with ridiculously loud music. I'd just fallen asleep and it woke me up. I stuck my head out the window and asked them to turn it down and I got ignored, so I rang noise control (during which I nearly fell over, I was shaking so bad and felt nauseous, by the gods I hate telephones), and they said it would take up to an hour for a noise control officer to get there. So I waited, and at 4:00am it was still going so I rang again - they said the call had been logged at 3:10am and to give it another 15 minutes. I just gave up. I don't think noise control ever actually showed, and the loud music car left at about 5:30am. So I fell asleep again.
Then BAM, exactly 7:00am, one of my neighbours starts yelling and screaming and crying and smashing things, sounding completely out of control. Wakes me up, AGAIN, and I'm thinking fuck's sake, sounds like he needs to be in hospital - he was basically having a complete emotional blow-out. That lasted for about an hour and a half. I eventually fell asleep around 10:00am and got up just after midday.
I'm really pissed off at those neighbours, because I'd actually fallen asleep not long after midnight, and without their visitors and so forth, I may well have got a full night's sleep. Not so. So I'm still exhausted, and everybody's still going to say it's because I'm in a mixed state and that I need to take the medication as PRN, but what they don't see is that I'm actually trying really hard to sleep, I feel totally exhausted. I'm also really irritable. I swear if I owned a decent weapon I would have smashed the crap out of both their car AND its stereo, because it's not the first time they've had a random loud party at three in the morning so I doubt it will be the last. Maybe I need to buy an axe or something.
I ate today. Nice'n'Spicy chicken nibbles. Tasted great. Felt awful. Like, absolutely horrible. I've had stomach cramps and so forth ever since. I cooked the chicken properly, it just happens to be that I'm not overly hungry so my body is not reacting well to food. It's unpleasant. Everything is unpleasant.
The weather is too damn hot. We're nearly ten days into March, and today so far we've reached a high of 27C. Most of the North Island is in a drought state. We've had less than a third of our normal rain fall in the last two months, and now March is looking like being long, hot and dry as well. I hate it. It's Auckland, raining 1 - 3 times every single week in summer is normal for me. The dryness makes me feel awful. I like rain, it's a huge part of who I am and where I've grown up. We're going to be hit hard. Milk prices will rise higher than they already are, and in NZ, when the price of milk goes up, so does the price of everything else.
I just hate it. I feel so awful and so irritable. And just yucky. And yet apparently I'm in a mostly hypomanic state. What the actual fuck. I know some people get irritable instead of euphoric but I also have no motivation, what's going on here? Just because I was laughing and fidgeting?
I am so confused and so unhappy.
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