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Posted January 31st 2013 at 08:06 AM by i_like_black
Actually, I'm starting to be mildly confused, a LOT. It's just one of those things. Like I have good days - aside from those couple of days where I felt beyond crappy - but on those days I still want to self-harm, and I still do - which doesn't make sense to me.
I got paranoid last night about somebody finding my stash. So I relocated it to a place which I hope is not obvious.
I got Sköll boots! Well, I got the ones from last year recharged anyway. Well sort of. They regain the charge I didn't use last year, then once that's gone I can have them recharged for this year. Same deal with Hati paws, but I'm not doing much combat at the moment so not really a thing.
I was just chillin' like a villain this afternoon, when Lyn text me. She said they were planning to go to Wendy's tonight to celebrate Nikki's birthday (which it turns out is tomorrow, I had no idea), and would I like to come. I rang Lyn to explain that yes, I'd like to come, but I only had $5 cash. She said to give her some time to see if she could sort something out and she'd ring me back.
So she rang me back, asked if I could catch the train to Sylvia Park, and we'd meet there. I remembered that Sylvia Park is three stages ($4.50) away so I said yeah sure, and she said she'd reimburse me for the train fare. So I caught the train to Sylvia Park, Lyn picked me up, we drove out to their place, I hung around with Nikki for a while, then we went to Wendy's and I got a free meal and we all ate and conversed and had a good time, then Dad drove me home - and I made sure I gave them a bunch of tomatoes that I had. Seriously, I have SO MANY tomatoes at the moment.
Ended up being good, I'd been craving Wendy's, so to get it free was like the most massive win situation ever. And I still have the same amount of cash I had planned to go into Friday with, which is a bonus.
My probation officer wasn't there this week so I saw the duty guy instead. Appointment lasted 5 minutes, no issues whatsoever. My appointment with Judy tomorrow is likely to be a lot less simple.
But, I've been behaving. Haven't been walking on motorways or trying to kill myself or anything. Sure, self-harming, but I don't feel low (anymore), so it shouldn't be an issue. They can't section me for some superficial self-harm, no matter how regular it is. At least, I really hope they can't. Or that they wouldn't want to. We'll find out tomorrow anyway!
But yeah, mostly a good day, still hot, dry weather though.
I got paranoid last night about somebody finding my stash. So I relocated it to a place which I hope is not obvious.
I got Sköll boots! Well, I got the ones from last year recharged anyway. Well sort of. They regain the charge I didn't use last year, then once that's gone I can have them recharged for this year. Same deal with Hati paws, but I'm not doing much combat at the moment so not really a thing.
I was just chillin' like a villain this afternoon, when Lyn text me. She said they were planning to go to Wendy's tonight to celebrate Nikki's birthday (which it turns out is tomorrow, I had no idea), and would I like to come. I rang Lyn to explain that yes, I'd like to come, but I only had $5 cash. She said to give her some time to see if she could sort something out and she'd ring me back.
So she rang me back, asked if I could catch the train to Sylvia Park, and we'd meet there. I remembered that Sylvia Park is three stages ($4.50) away so I said yeah sure, and she said she'd reimburse me for the train fare. So I caught the train to Sylvia Park, Lyn picked me up, we drove out to their place, I hung around with Nikki for a while, then we went to Wendy's and I got a free meal and we all ate and conversed and had a good time, then Dad drove me home - and I made sure I gave them a bunch of tomatoes that I had. Seriously, I have SO MANY tomatoes at the moment.
Ended up being good, I'd been craving Wendy's, so to get it free was like the most massive win situation ever. And I still have the same amount of cash I had planned to go into Friday with, which is a bonus.
My probation officer wasn't there this week so I saw the duty guy instead. Appointment lasted 5 minutes, no issues whatsoever. My appointment with Judy tomorrow is likely to be a lot less simple.
But, I've been behaving. Haven't been walking on motorways or trying to kill myself or anything. Sure, self-harming, but I don't feel low (anymore), so it shouldn't be an issue. They can't section me for some superficial self-harm, no matter how regular it is. At least, I really hope they can't. Or that they wouldn't want to. We'll find out tomorrow anyway!
But yeah, mostly a good day, still hot, dry weather though.
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