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Posted November 23rd 2012 at 09:25 PM by i_like_black
It's nearly halfway through Saturday. I got out of bed at about 10:30am, after literally about 12 hours in bed, though not all of them sleeping. I've had breakfast. It wasn't exactly a healthy breakfast (instant packet food/snack food), but at least it's something. I can't figure out if I'm hungry or I just like the taste of things.
The minor self-harm is continuing. My keyworker is a little worried that I'll slip somewhat and it will get out of control. I don't really care, to be honest. As long as I have the pain, my mind doesn't stray to suicide. It's stupid, whatever, but cutting works.
I had a brainwave last night. Because every time I put ten dollars on my overdraft account in order to start paying it off, I spend the ten dollars. So, I've snapped the eftpos card for that account. It's not like I need the extra money, and I just spend it on junk food mostly anyway. So yeah.
And I really need to go to the gym, but I'm so tired. So tired.
The minor self-harm is continuing. My keyworker is a little worried that I'll slip somewhat and it will get out of control. I don't really care, to be honest. As long as I have the pain, my mind doesn't stray to suicide. It's stupid, whatever, but cutting works.
I had a brainwave last night. Because every time I put ten dollars on my overdraft account in order to start paying it off, I spend the ten dollars. So, I've snapped the eftpos card for that account. It's not like I need the extra money, and I just spend it on junk food mostly anyway. So yeah.
And I really need to go to the gym, but I'm so tired. So tired.
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I really hope you're okay. Keep your head up. I'm here if you ever need a chat <3Posted November 23rd 2012 at 10:09 PM by Palmolive
