Weird.

Well, I think I've almost decided on what I'm doing when Sam moves out. I think I'll stay here on my own. That way, I don't have to worry about anybody else's financial situation, and my own financial situation won't affect anybody else. I think it's wise.

I texted Leisa last night. I'm not entirely sure what the motivation was. It felt really weird to be talking to somebody outside of their working hours, and it was a massive leap outside of my comfort zone. I think I prefer to stay inside my little bubble and just let things happen as they may. And if I feel like cutting, just do it in places where my probation officer won't check.

I'm waiting (at least another 6 hours) to use the toilet. Not to pee, I'm perfectly okay with doing that any time. It's just I feel really really awkward when I poop and my flatmate is around. Sometimes she'll say something, and then I'll feel really embarrassed. It's just easier if I wait until she's asleep. And my anxiety over bathroom privacy is another reason why I'm likely to choose to stay here on my own. I will probably have less money, but I'll manage.

I think that's everything for now.

Oh, I didn't have time to go and give blood yesterday, so I'll have to google NZ Blood again to find out when they're next collecting near me. And I didn't go to the gym yesterday because I was feeling far too yuck. I'll either go tomorrow or Monday.