How to know you're low.

Well, in other news, my cellphone just died last night. As in, it ran out of battery, but then, after being charged, it never turned on again. It is now in many, many pieces courtesy of my hammer, because to be honest, replacing it with a cheap phone is much cheaper than paying for it to fixed.

And anyway. So I got up this morning (just), and tried to eat breakfast. I managed about half my bowl of cereal before feeling too sick to continue. I'm not hungry in the slightest to be completely honest, and all I want to do is sleep. I don't want to die, I don't want to move, I don't want to do anything. I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep some more.

I knew this was coming so I'm not surprised. I'm just . . . very lethargic and a large amount apathetic. And occasionally violent.

I got told I'm probably not getting my driver's license back any time soon, and then the same day, my phone dies. So along with knowing I was already ripe for falling down, there have been a couple of actual triggers.

So . . . I guess . . . I don't know. The trip from high to low took a whole 24 hours, if that. Was the high worth it? Well, it sure felt it at the time, I know that much. Right now? Well, I'm not so sure. I'm really not so sure.

I should do my washing. I should go to the gym. I should give a fuck. It's not going to happen.

<3 Love you all.