Only Hope

Today was good.
No tears at all this week. I am mighty proud of myself. Even if I don't know how I am doing it.
Almost cried yesterday, felt the tears in my eyes. But I held it in and went to sleep. I forget why I almost cried anyway. Haha.
I don't what is happening to me. I am changing, it's for the better, but I don't know why I am. Maybe all the advice has finally kicked in. Who knows.
Not going to dwell on the thought.
Today I cleaned my room and the dining room, did some laundry too. My grandmas sick, so I helped. Then I went to my friend Amys' house. We went down to a food place called, Generals. Had sodas and fries. Then hanged at her house. Fun time. Planning on going over there tomorrow after church and lunch..
You know they say when you do something you're not supposed to do, God will punish you. I am not allowed to date. Every relationship has failed me, and I was always happy; besides the "other" things.Now there is no boy. I'm happier now.
If I win, I will praise the Lord. If I lose I will praise the Lord.
I can be better, I will better.
Will this last? Hope so.