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Stuck With Alan
Posted November 11th 2011 at 02:41 AM by Hopeyyy
I fell in love.
With this kid.
Bryan.
One year, fell in love.
Second year, head over heals.
Third year, went senseless, lost track.
Fourth year, lost the love.
I was messed up. But I caught myself before I went to far down.
Found Alan.
Amazing friend.
Fell hard.
Really hard.
Way past head over heals.
It hurts so much. I really love him.
He will never know.
No one will.
Because it isn't real.
It can't happen.
Plus I'll never be that way to him.
Escepially since every single girl likes him.
He could have any girl he wanted.
It will never be me.
Im scared of my life for when he tells me he has a girlfriend.
I dont know if I'll be able to handle it.
I tried dateing other guys...it didnt work.
Everytime I hugged a boyfriend. Alan would be in the back in my mind...
I'm over it.
I'm over trying to cover this up.
I will never tell anyone how I feel about him.
But I won't date until this feeling goes away.
&& I need it to go away.
But...what if he could just kiss me?....
Will that sastisfy my love?
:"(
Stuck..
With this kid.
Bryan.
One year, fell in love.
Second year, head over heals.
Third year, went senseless, lost track.
Fourth year, lost the love.
I was messed up. But I caught myself before I went to far down.
Found Alan.
Amazing friend.
Fell hard.
Really hard.
Way past head over heals.
It hurts so much. I really love him.
He will never know.
No one will.
Because it isn't real.
It can't happen.
Plus I'll never be that way to him.
Escepially since every single girl likes him.
He could have any girl he wanted.
It will never be me.
Im scared of my life for when he tells me he has a girlfriend.
I dont know if I'll be able to handle it.
I tried dateing other guys...it didnt work.
Everytime I hugged a boyfriend. Alan would be in the back in my mind...
I'm over it.
I'm over trying to cover this up.
I will never tell anyone how I feel about him.
But I won't date until this feeling goes away.
&& I need it to go away.
But...what if he could just kiss me?....
Will that sastisfy my love?
:"(
Stuck..
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