First Entry

Hey guys,
so i just want to tell you all about me and why I joined here.
So last year it felt like everyone hated me. The people in my class would talk about me and be rude to me, and even my 'friends' used to talk about me behind my back. I felt really alone and I had no idea what to do. Then as I was walking to my class one day, I was daydreaming and then I realised I was looking at a boy because he shouted "what you lookin' at you ugly?" I tried to ignore it, but I started to feel as if the reason people didn't like me was because I was too ugly. The same boy shouts horrible things whenever he sees me. I felt so bad that I started to self-harm.But then I realised that a really cute and sweet boy liked me. He looked at me like I was actually a human and he treated me like one too. He made me feel good about myself-so good that I didn't need to self-harm to feel better,I just thought about himand I guess that's why I started to like him back. But then a few months later I told him how I feel, and he just ignores me and it's like I don't exist. I've started self-harming again because all those bad feelings are back, and the only person who made me feel better ignores me. I don't know what to do anymore.